Bound
All I see,
Is who I can’t be,
Watching from the distant shore,
Wishing I could soar,
Am I the broken chain?
Am I the one I should blame?
Rage is shrouding,
The room of my mind is crowding,
Under attack,
Cloaked in black,
Praying for change,
It’s like I’m deranged,
All I do is lament,
All I do is vent,
Even after I repent,
I go home and still transgress,
Satan makes me feel like I’m something less,
Self-built barriers,
Demonic harriers,
Asking where to go,
Which seeds to sow,
I look around me and see I’m not the same,
They look at me and say lame,
Behind my back,
Trying to derail my track,
Saying how I’m whack,
How I’m a pariah,
But really I’m just about to tire,
I can’t take anymore of their phony plastic,
Maybe I’ll do something brutally drastic,
Rage still a cage,
Burning flames on my page,
They say he’s just going through that age,
But he knows its so much more,
Something from deep within his core,
His heart; his temple is being rocked,
After too many of his peers have him blocked,
Lying alone in his bed,
Healing will take place they said,
All he feels right now is dead,
Does faith have enough street-cred?
What will happen on the thirty-first?
Will I continue to be cursed?...
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
Yahweh's Retort
Yahweh’s Retort
Satan spoke to me in the darkest watch of last night,
His deceptive words and lies tricked me to incite,
Rage at people I just want to love,
I forgot about forgiveness and the one above,
I screamed to my creator on his throne,
Why I was in my situation; seemingly alone,
But how could one so divine,
Be betrayed by those he had over to dine,
How could he understand,
How people have left me for a more fruitful land,
The devil gripped my heart,
And tore all that was good in me apart,
Then my God reminded me of the wizard sage,
Who was speaking to that hobbit around my own spiritual age,
That I must make good on the time that I have,
Even when it seems I can’t even walk that path,
Then I saw my king strung up on the cross,
I was able to remember the cost,
That my savior has been where I have been,
He has seen the travesties I have seen,
He, too, wondered if he was forsaken,
His intentions were also gravely mistaken,
He was there before,
And he knows that for him I could soar,
I want to truly understand his affection,
I want to see past the human infection,
Walking down the center of this town,
Teaching of blood shed on a thorny crown,
Preaching love of brothers,
Sending the hearts of the children back to their broken mothers,
I am beloved,
I have friends; forget what I said,
I pray for my lord’s mercy,
For his Agape I am thirsty,
He loves my every part,
For me he has such a big heart,
Even when I cry to him why I am forsaken,
Even when I feel like all my joy has been taken,
I no longer want to be the shadow boy,
I will show all the world the reason for my unabated joy,
Abba loves you I will cry on,
As that drumbeat heralds the coming of the new Zion...
Satan spoke to me in the darkest watch of last night,
His deceptive words and lies tricked me to incite,
Rage at people I just want to love,
I forgot about forgiveness and the one above,
I screamed to my creator on his throne,
Why I was in my situation; seemingly alone,
But how could one so divine,
Be betrayed by those he had over to dine,
How could he understand,
How people have left me for a more fruitful land,
The devil gripped my heart,
And tore all that was good in me apart,
Then my God reminded me of the wizard sage,
Who was speaking to that hobbit around my own spiritual age,
That I must make good on the time that I have,
Even when it seems I can’t even walk that path,
Then I saw my king strung up on the cross,
I was able to remember the cost,
That my savior has been where I have been,
He has seen the travesties I have seen,
He, too, wondered if he was forsaken,
His intentions were also gravely mistaken,
He was there before,
And he knows that for him I could soar,
I want to truly understand his affection,
I want to see past the human infection,
Walking down the center of this town,
Teaching of blood shed on a thorny crown,
Preaching love of brothers,
Sending the hearts of the children back to their broken mothers,
I am beloved,
I have friends; forget what I said,
I pray for my lord’s mercy,
For his Agape I am thirsty,
He loves my every part,
For me he has such a big heart,
Even when I cry to him why I am forsaken,
Even when I feel like all my joy has been taken,
I no longer want to be the shadow boy,
I will show all the world the reason for my unabated joy,
Abba loves you I will cry on,
As that drumbeat heralds the coming of the new Zion...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
"Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage"
ANGER
Green Thunder
Shadows swirl,
Defeated angels curl,
Scholarly stagnation,
Trampled elation,
Creeping depression,
Growing obsession,
Pained rage,
Bloody page,
Imprisonment,
God sent?
Dreaming of the stars,
Visions of electric guitars,
There is no spoon,
There is no more room,
Mounting hate,
Second chances are too late,
Hanging crosses,
Tyrannical bosses,
Am I living my own burial?
Searching for Ariel
Crying to the Lord,
I’m the one with the worst hand on the board,
I’ve been this way for years,
I’ve put up with the evil spirits’ jeers,
I’m not sure how longer I can take this rejection,
Longing, staring at my ugly reflection,
I can hear the voices,
The ones on each shoulder at every one of my choices,
All crying DISORDER!
I’m stuck in isolated Mordor,
All I can hear is the methodic drumming,
I have to dance to that constant thrumming,
Even though I can’t move,
I got a God to prove,
Even through my doubts,
So I can save all the heathen louts,
So….you know what?
I’m not gonna waste my emotions on you and turn into a raving nut,
I despise you people,
Let others pray to you on your fair steeple,
I’ll let you fester,
I’m no longer gonna pester,
Staring at the gravestone,
Gazing at my illuminated monitor; in the dark; all alone,
What have I got to live for?
A chance to rise from my chains and soar?
But every time I glance at the Holy Grail,
I don’t really believe, and I fail,
I stare at the ground,
And wonder if I’ve truly been found,
Away from the populous,
Living in the gutters of Metropolis,
Looking for a way out,
Encircled by doubt,
What would I do if I found a gun?
Trust me…. that day at my school would not be fun,
Watch them go to the fair one and bow,
As they pray to their gods and give them a fattened cow,
All this pain bottled up,
Overflowing in life’s cup,
Don’t know where to go with my life and this poem,
Not in the in crowd; don’t even know any of them,
I can’t even by taken away from here; beamed,
Running down the mountain I have dreamed,
Anger at the world,
My flag of rage unfurled,
Righteousness tainted,
Blood upon the walls will be painted,
Then they’ll know how it is to be dead,
Lying all alone, unable to move from their bed,
I lie there by myself while listening to rap,
Stagnant in life’s sweat and crap,
Always getting the girls you don’t want,
While the ones you do just smile at you and taunt,
It’s not fair,
Watching all the pairs,
By yourself,
Watching the formerly empty window shelf,
If I gain a fortune,
They’ll be on me before the next June,
It doesn’t truly matter,
But everyone else is allowed to flatter,
Not the cripple,
Not the cripple,
He’s all by himself in the corner,
Watching his life pass him by; the mourner,
His smile is broken,
Even when he is jokin’
He used to be glad,
Before he became melancholic and sad,
That was before he realized how it really is,
This is how they do it in the life biz,
Life’s not a fairy tale,
So I’m gonna raise my sad sail,
In my small boat,
In a storm without a coat,
I’m just a joke
I’ll just go smoke a tree like an average bloke,
Why should I try anyway?
I have to work three times as hard to get the same pay,
So why should I care?
I’m just the fat stupid teddy bear,
What are these visions of green lightning,
And blue dreams that are truly frightening,
What are they?
Who was really born on the thirtieth of May?
Will he burn the righteous with wood,
Or stand up for what is good,
He doesn’t know,
All he knows is teenage aggression and its makin’ him low,
He’s still a cripple,
He is still just as fickle,
But he’s angry,
And it won’t last,
Maybe they’ll hear with a violent gat blast…
Green Thunder
Shadows swirl,
Defeated angels curl,
Scholarly stagnation,
Trampled elation,
Creeping depression,
Growing obsession,
Pained rage,
Bloody page,
Imprisonment,
God sent?
Dreaming of the stars,
Visions of electric guitars,
There is no spoon,
There is no more room,
Mounting hate,
Second chances are too late,
Hanging crosses,
Tyrannical bosses,
Am I living my own burial?
Searching for Ariel
Crying to the Lord,
I’m the one with the worst hand on the board,
I’ve been this way for years,
I’ve put up with the evil spirits’ jeers,
I’m not sure how longer I can take this rejection,
Longing, staring at my ugly reflection,
I can hear the voices,
The ones on each shoulder at every one of my choices,
All crying DISORDER!
I’m stuck in isolated Mordor,
All I can hear is the methodic drumming,
I have to dance to that constant thrumming,
Even though I can’t move,
I got a God to prove,
Even through my doubts,
So I can save all the heathen louts,
So….you know what?
I’m not gonna waste my emotions on you and turn into a raving nut,
I despise you people,
Let others pray to you on your fair steeple,
I’ll let you fester,
I’m no longer gonna pester,
Staring at the gravestone,
Gazing at my illuminated monitor; in the dark; all alone,
What have I got to live for?
A chance to rise from my chains and soar?
But every time I glance at the Holy Grail,
I don’t really believe, and I fail,
I stare at the ground,
And wonder if I’ve truly been found,
Away from the populous,
Living in the gutters of Metropolis,
Looking for a way out,
Encircled by doubt,
What would I do if I found a gun?
Trust me…. that day at my school would not be fun,
Watch them go to the fair one and bow,
As they pray to their gods and give them a fattened cow,
All this pain bottled up,
Overflowing in life’s cup,
Don’t know where to go with my life and this poem,
Not in the in crowd; don’t even know any of them,
I can’t even by taken away from here; beamed,
Running down the mountain I have dreamed,
Anger at the world,
My flag of rage unfurled,
Righteousness tainted,
Blood upon the walls will be painted,
Then they’ll know how it is to be dead,
Lying all alone, unable to move from their bed,
I lie there by myself while listening to rap,
Stagnant in life’s sweat and crap,
Always getting the girls you don’t want,
While the ones you do just smile at you and taunt,
It’s not fair,
Watching all the pairs,
By yourself,
Watching the formerly empty window shelf,
If I gain a fortune,
They’ll be on me before the next June,
It doesn’t truly matter,
But everyone else is allowed to flatter,
Not the cripple,
Not the cripple,
He’s all by himself in the corner,
Watching his life pass him by; the mourner,
His smile is broken,
Even when he is jokin’
He used to be glad,
Before he became melancholic and sad,
That was before he realized how it really is,
This is how they do it in the life biz,
Life’s not a fairy tale,
So I’m gonna raise my sad sail,
In my small boat,
In a storm without a coat,
I’m just a joke
I’ll just go smoke a tree like an average bloke,
Why should I try anyway?
I have to work three times as hard to get the same pay,
So why should I care?
I’m just the fat stupid teddy bear,
What are these visions of green lightning,
And blue dreams that are truly frightening,
What are they?
Who was really born on the thirtieth of May?
Will he burn the righteous with wood,
Or stand up for what is good,
He doesn’t know,
All he knows is teenage aggression and its makin’ him low,
He’s still a cripple,
He is still just as fickle,
But he’s angry,
And it won’t last,
Maybe they’ll hear with a violent gat blast…
All Hallows Eve
Dear Bros,
Our creative writing teacher told us to write something about Halloween. So I did, this really reflects my mood...how I feel really stagnent and alone at school. Anyway, enjoy......
God Bless
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All Hallows Eve
Come, minions of the night,
Take from those who strive to do right,
Dance to your heathen gods,
While you prostrate yourselves on our holy sods,
Follow the path of wrong,
Follow the night and her seductive song,
Sing your devil chants,
Stab the clean knights with your dark lance,
Cast your spell,
Dig yourself into hell,
Let all the children come and learn,
How to rape, pillage, and burn,
Let then treat and trick,
While hellish flames lick,
Raise up a temple to Baal,
As bright leaves rapidly fall,
Shadows is all I see,
Haunting images of a dead and blackened tree,
No more light,
As you demons stalk through the night…
Our creative writing teacher told us to write something about Halloween. So I did, this really reflects my mood...how I feel really stagnent and alone at school. Anyway, enjoy......
God Bless
elscribe
All Hallows Eve
Come, minions of the night,
Take from those who strive to do right,
Dance to your heathen gods,
While you prostrate yourselves on our holy sods,
Follow the path of wrong,
Follow the night and her seductive song,
Sing your devil chants,
Stab the clean knights with your dark lance,
Cast your spell,
Dig yourself into hell,
Let all the children come and learn,
How to rape, pillage, and burn,
Let then treat and trick,
While hellish flames lick,
Raise up a temple to Baal,
As bright leaves rapidly fall,
Shadows is all I see,
Haunting images of a dead and blackened tree,
No more light,
As you demons stalk through the night…
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Older Poems (from like two months ago)
Riddle
Muddled
Befuddled
Unknown,
Not quite sown,
Confused,
Bemused,
Misunderstood,
Standing where nobody else would,
Alone,
No one to phone,
Respected,
Rejected….
Harvest
High school walls,
Rampant Sauls,
Battle commencing,
No more recompensing,
Morality skewed,
Redemption’s chance renewed,
Lucifer’s nest,
Demonic spirits infest,
Lines drawn,
Faith’s dawn,
Sides taken,
Holy words mistaken,
Dwindling good,
Burning wood,
Flags raised,
Idols praised,
Battleground,
Souls to be found…
Muddled
Befuddled
Unknown,
Not quite sown,
Confused,
Bemused,
Misunderstood,
Standing where nobody else would,
Alone,
No one to phone,
Respected,
Rejected….
Harvest
High school walls,
Rampant Sauls,
Battle commencing,
No more recompensing,
Morality skewed,
Redemption’s chance renewed,
Lucifer’s nest,
Demonic spirits infest,
Lines drawn,
Faith’s dawn,
Sides taken,
Holy words mistaken,
Dwindling good,
Burning wood,
Flags raised,
Idols praised,
Battleground,
Souls to be found…
The Ballad of Pan
The Ballad of Pan
Even though at times I can be sad,
You, Lord, come to me and lift my spirits so I am glad,
I worship your worthy name,
Now the beast within me is finally at rest; tame,
For I have much to praise you for,
Even though it may seem to me that I am constantly at war,
I remember what was said about a baby boy, who would probably fade away by the time he was five,
But because of you, he’s still here, very much alive,
I thank you for all the people I have around,
How when that boy was sick his mother’s prayers did resound,
Even when that boy was near the gate of the dead,
His mother’s loving lullabies were still being said,
While the statue watched,
While Lucifer’s plans were botched,
Peter Pan, made of rock, stood outside,
A memento of how his creator to the hospice tithed,
I am thankful that I have a shadow like Pan,
One who knows that in all my dreams I ran,
You, my shadow, will not leave even when my sins never stop being piled,
I pray to be like Peter, that rock, that immortal child,
When you call my name, like a kid, I want to giggle,
I want no portion of the adult cynic left to wiggle,
Truly only children can see your face,
For they are the epitome of this; our human race,
Set in my heart your rightful tent,
Let me no longer lament,
My shadows only one that I am beside,
Even when everything is screwed up; seeming to have died,
I pray for you to always love me,
That I may forever be like a child; on your warm knee,
I want to lean on your shepherd’s cane,
As I walk beside you along the truest lane…
Even though at times I can be sad,
You, Lord, come to me and lift my spirits so I am glad,
I worship your worthy name,
Now the beast within me is finally at rest; tame,
For I have much to praise you for,
Even though it may seem to me that I am constantly at war,
I remember what was said about a baby boy, who would probably fade away by the time he was five,
But because of you, he’s still here, very much alive,
I thank you for all the people I have around,
How when that boy was sick his mother’s prayers did resound,
Even when that boy was near the gate of the dead,
His mother’s loving lullabies were still being said,
While the statue watched,
While Lucifer’s plans were botched,
Peter Pan, made of rock, stood outside,
A memento of how his creator to the hospice tithed,
I am thankful that I have a shadow like Pan,
One who knows that in all my dreams I ran,
You, my shadow, will not leave even when my sins never stop being piled,
I pray to be like Peter, that rock, that immortal child,
When you call my name, like a kid, I want to giggle,
I want no portion of the adult cynic left to wiggle,
Truly only children can see your face,
For they are the epitome of this; our human race,
Set in my heart your rightful tent,
Let me no longer lament,
My shadows only one that I am beside,
Even when everything is screwed up; seeming to have died,
I pray for you to always love me,
That I may forever be like a child; on your warm knee,
I want to lean on your shepherd’s cane,
As I walk beside you along the truest lane…
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Jesus Burger
Dear Bros,
I was just reading John 6:35-47, where Jesus is telling some of the Jews about how he is the bread that fell from heaven. After reading this, God put this poem in my head, hope you guys enjoy it:
God Bless
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Jesus Burger
Jesus, you are the bread,
Your path is the one I choose to tread,
I want to lose myself in you,
I don’t want to be among those who are blue,
I want to dwell in your house,
Lying on your fuzzy lion’s back like a small mouse,
Like the shepherd king,
Among his sheep did sing,
Who played his melodious harp,
While gazing at the wondrous things you created; like the comically colorful carp,
He also had nobody to hear his psalms,
Your heavenly rye did come to him and bring calms,
You are the wheat that fell from heaven,
On my front porch as the clock struck seven,
I took a big bite of your spiritual nourishment,
As I realized that when I confessed my sins there would be no punishment,
After I realized that I had just gone to the drive-thru,
And had been birthed again; anew,
Picking up the Christ Mac,
I’m glad I don’t have to give any of my bucks back,
While the rest of the world is still gulping down their Gerber’s
I’ll be chomping on my Jesus Burger…
I was just reading John 6:35-47, where Jesus is telling some of the Jews about how he is the bread that fell from heaven. After reading this, God put this poem in my head, hope you guys enjoy it:
God Bless
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Jesus Burger
Jesus, you are the bread,
Your path is the one I choose to tread,
I want to lose myself in you,
I don’t want to be among those who are blue,
I want to dwell in your house,
Lying on your fuzzy lion’s back like a small mouse,
Like the shepherd king,
Among his sheep did sing,
Who played his melodious harp,
While gazing at the wondrous things you created; like the comically colorful carp,
He also had nobody to hear his psalms,
Your heavenly rye did come to him and bring calms,
You are the wheat that fell from heaven,
On my front porch as the clock struck seven,
I took a big bite of your spiritual nourishment,
As I realized that when I confessed my sins there would be no punishment,
After I realized that I had just gone to the drive-thru,
And had been birthed again; anew,
Picking up the Christ Mac,
I’m glad I don’t have to give any of my bucks back,
While the rest of the world is still gulping down their Gerber’s
I’ll be chomping on my Jesus Burger…
Monday, October 17, 2005
'Till Jesus Comes
‘Till Jesus Comes
Here I sit; broken hearted,
Came to play; the others all departed,
Shadows invade my corner and fester,
To others I am just a mere flea; one who will pester,
Sometimes my mind is filled with aggression,
I am caged in stifled progression,
I look through the bars,
Forced to bow to the beautifully clean tsars,
Far off in the distance I hear the drumbeat mounting,
Waiting for my day of budding; furiously counting,
I wake every morning,
To the sun’s early dawning,
I rest when the sky is red at night,
It is my; the psalmist’s delight,
I pray to the eternal,
For him to save me from the fiery infernal,
He hears my lonely lament,
He hears my cry for my faith in him to be like cement,
Not quite a Man,
Though not quite damned,
I sing a song happily,
Though slightly off key; and some will say quite crappily,
This little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine,
For the love I see around me I will rhyme,
So, this little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
‘Till Jesus Comes,
‘Till Jesus Comes,
‘Till Jesus Comes…
Here I sit; broken hearted,
Came to play; the others all departed,
Shadows invade my corner and fester,
To others I am just a mere flea; one who will pester,
Sometimes my mind is filled with aggression,
I am caged in stifled progression,
I look through the bars,
Forced to bow to the beautifully clean tsars,
Far off in the distance I hear the drumbeat mounting,
Waiting for my day of budding; furiously counting,
I wake every morning,
To the sun’s early dawning,
I rest when the sky is red at night,
It is my; the psalmist’s delight,
I pray to the eternal,
For him to save me from the fiery infernal,
He hears my lonely lament,
He hears my cry for my faith in him to be like cement,
Not quite a Man,
Though not quite damned,
I sing a song happily,
Though slightly off key; and some will say quite crappily,
This little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine,
For the love I see around me I will rhyme,
So, this little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
‘Till Jesus Comes,
‘Till Jesus Comes,
‘Till Jesus Comes…
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Brothers in Arms (Two Little Boys Edited)
Brothers in Arms
for john
Snow fell from the heavens, covering the wintry countryside in a thick blanket of purest white. Clouds cloaked the sky completely in a dull gray dome. A sleepy country village sat huddled against rolling hills. Its Tudor buildings clinging to each other like frightened children in the blizzard. Roofs seemed to be painted with the snow, icicles frozen in eternal falls dripped from their weathered tiles.
Two travelers trudged through the snow, heading for the village’s central tavern. The inn’s lights guided them, a lighthouse amidst a churning sea. Candles flickered from the frosted windows; projecting what little warmth they held to the blistering cold outside, as the taller of the two guided his diminutive companion through the less dense patches of snow. Nearing the door, the tall figure turned back to his friend, a benevolent smile on his youthful face.
“Here we are Dravin, in Gribble, right outside the Drunken Dragon Inn. Be cautious around here, I hear the Gribble Guard doesn’t have a very good sense of humor. I don’t want any little episode with you like we had in Lubton. Are we clear?” he said, a bemused look spreading across his face. Dravin, his three foot short companion, smiled awkwardly, his head slightly too big in proportion to the rest of his body.
“Aww…Joken, what did I do that was so bad in Lubton? I had a jolly time with that wench!”
“Yes...until her father discovered that poem you wrote for her. I think he probably must have been pretty distressed while he was reading about his daughter’s lips in such poetic and excruciating detail. You know that humans don’t take kindly to your Halfling kind!” replied Joken.
“Well…it would have worked if you hadn’t rushed me. That poem would have been safe, but I ran and it fell out of my pouch. Watch…one day I’ll find a human female that takes a fancy to midgets!”
“You shouldn’t call yourself that. Your kind is much more noble than mine. My kind is constantly warring, fighting, raping, stealing, plundering, and all manner of unseemly practices. Your kind have lived in peaceful existence with one another for millennia, just quietly farming.”
“I hate farming. The animals relieve themselves way too much than they should physically be able to. An’ when you eat them it takes four hours to chew on the bloody steak. The only good thing they had goin’ for them in Bumfluff Manor was the weed. Ok, fine, I’ll behave myself here. But if there are any blondes…” Dravin’s voice trailed off as he received a withering look from his human companion.
Pushing the rotting tavern door in, Joken and Dravin waltzed through the frame. A cavernous room greeted them. As Joken closed the door, a gush of wind blew in snow, sucking warmth from the tavern into the frigid night. As the door shut, the two friends looked around. The inn encircled them in an oval shape. A second level rose above the first; wooden barricades were built around this higher floor, and stopped drunkards from falling to the first floor. Wooden rafters hung over the two travelers’ snow flaked heads. All manor of human drank, danced, and reveled as Joken led Dravin through the convulsing crowd.
Reaching the oak bar, they faced the bartender. Dravin’s head just slightly rose above the counter, as he tried to crane his non-existent neck to regard the grisly barman. Joken pushed back his brown hair as he ordered Dragonmilk for he and Dravin.
“We don’t serve non-humans at the bar. You should clean your feet of dirt before you come.” Joken glared at the malicious bartender; rage bubbling up from a well deep within him. Shifting his cloak so the hilt of his broadsword just showed, Joken again asked the man for some drinks. The man hesitated for a moment, his grey eyes shifting uneasily. Deciding that he did not wish to aggravate the customer, the man passed over a couple of filled mugs.
“Alright, I’ll serve you. You’ll have to go in the back booths where all the dwarfs are. Shortie here will feel right at home.” he chuckled, as Dravin and Joken headed for the booths under the second floor’s walkway.
About a dozen tables consisted of the back booths. Most of the round tables were filled with gangs of dwarfs merrily drinking and singing. Their bushy beards appeared drenched in every form of alcohol ever conceived, as their armor clinked while they swayed in time to an old dwarf rhyme. A few slammed their hammers down on the wooden tables, a beat to sing along to:
‘Twas ten centuries ago this day, this day,
That down’ in the mines of ole’ they say, they say,
That the scalie Tinwing did pay, did pay,
For all he had done down ‘neath the clay, ‘neath the clay,
When the legions of fabled Pangard came to play, came to play,
The dragon did die to his dismay, his dismay,
And all the dwarfs in the ancient hall cried out, Horray! Horray!
Joken and Dravin wisely sat as far away from the dwarfs as possible, as the song ended with a brawl when a few teenage dwarfs had added a few rude lines of their own creation to the revered tune. Dravin watched his Dragonmilk burst into flames a few times, the flammable liquid gushing out of the tankard and scorching the table with its acidity.
Eyeing his sullen companion mischievously, Dravin took a huge swig of the dangerous substance, slamming the tankard back down with a shaking hand. Opening his mouth, the Halfling burped out a small fireball. Flames skidded across the abused surface of their table. The short-lived flames died out just before they reached Joken at the other side of the table. With his brown eyes glinting ruefully, Joken chugged his own Dragonmilk and slopped it back down on the protesting table. Opening his mouth, Joken burped, and a gigantic fireball spewed from his mouth. Dravin jumped, falling backwards over his chair, his rotund body seeming to bounce off the stone floor of the tavern. Joken’s fireball vanished in mid-air, unused to the cold temperature this far away from where it had been taken from its home in the udder of a jungle dragon.
Joken laughed uproariously as his friend groped for his chair that had fallen on top of him. Seating himself back down, the Halfling glared at his friend, and then began to sip the rest of his fiery milk in humbled silence.
Joken scanned the room, his eyes taking in the assorted humans that entertained themselves in the lighter and more comfortable areas of the tavern. A wench was stretched out among what looked like a whole contingent of some barbarous army; the men seemed to be enjoying themselves immensely. A singer sang in the center platform of the room, ignored by almost everyone in the musty tavern. All the other humans seemed not to notice the human that had accompanied the Halfling in.
Turning his attention back to Dravin, Joken smiled. He wouldn’t want to be anywhere else. His place was with Dravin, his loyal companion. If humankind didn’t want Dravin, Joken didn’t want humankind.
The entrance to the tavern was suddenly thrown open, several members of the Gribble guard strode in, their extravagant red capes billowing behind them. Joken automatically jumped up, his hardened battle instincts kicking in. Dravin looked up from his empty tankard, his blue eyes drunkenly watching the armored men march up to their table.
“We heard there was a Halfling infesting our humble village! Typical…its primitive mind couldn’t comprehend the signs all around Gribble that said NO HALFLINGS! You and your SHORT kind shouldn’t be permitted to breathe our air!” said the lead guard, his well kempt face sneering.
Before either of the companions could react, the dwarfs behind them ceased their arguing and sprinted to the guards, their beards bristling with indignation.
“Who…may we ask, are you calling SHORT? We are not short…we are vertically challenged…and I’ll have you be reminded that derogatory remarks to people under the height of four feet is not to be tolerated! You pink monkeys!” said the dwarf who was acting as leader. Turning to Joken and Dravin with a calm expression, the dwarf said:
“Alright, lads, that will suffice for racial slurs! I would advise that you two take out your weapons…assuming you have them, of course. I also advise that you chaps run far way from here…very far away…there is about to be a lot of blood, booze, and hopefully later babes! We’ll keep Gribble busy ‘till the sun comes up! Cheerio!”
No sooner had the words flowed from the dwarf’s mouth than Joken had unsheathed his broadsword and Dravin had brandished an uncountable number of lethal looking daggers. The Gribble guard had also reacted too, taking out their scimitars and waving them around as if to frighten off what they viewed as armored fur balls. The dwarfs leapt from their positions, causing the whole tavern to burst into a bar fight. Chairs were flung left and right as humans jumped at any excuse to rebel against their strict authorities. The dwarfs motioned for the two companions to run out the door. The fur balls banging large hammers on their helmeted skulls and the raucous human population distracted the Gribble guards. One guard caught sight of Dravin making his way through the tumultuous crowd. Aiming a miniature crossbow at the Halfling the guard smiled. Before he could pull the trigger however, Joken knocked the crossbow out of his hands, and ran him through with his broadsword, pushing the body into a crumpled heap on the floor.
Opening the tavern door quietly, the pair crept out into the blizzard. Shutting the door behind him, Dravin blew a big sigh of relief, as the noise of the ensuing bar fight filtered through the chipped door. Turning, he took Joken’s side. Whistling for the two ponies that had ridden them here, Joken and Dravin jumped on their small mounts. The two bolted into the dwindling light.
Riding a large pony, Joken struggled to keep his feet from dragging on the mounting snow. Watching Dravin drift off to sleep on the white pony trotting alongside him, Joken smiled inwardly. He watched his companion sleepily, almost not wanting to doze in fear of something happening to his friend. Dravin was all he had. Joken had felt a strong bond with Dravin almost immediately after meeting him, and they had made quick friends. Now, Joken knew that they would protect each other with their lives. They were truly brothers. Bonds like that were never severed. Joken watched his friend as his blue eyes closed. Dravin knew he would be safe with Joken close by. The night enveloped the duo, as the blizzard swirled around them unhampered…
for john
Snow fell from the heavens, covering the wintry countryside in a thick blanket of purest white. Clouds cloaked the sky completely in a dull gray dome. A sleepy country village sat huddled against rolling hills. Its Tudor buildings clinging to each other like frightened children in the blizzard. Roofs seemed to be painted with the snow, icicles frozen in eternal falls dripped from their weathered tiles.
Two travelers trudged through the snow, heading for the village’s central tavern. The inn’s lights guided them, a lighthouse amidst a churning sea. Candles flickered from the frosted windows; projecting what little warmth they held to the blistering cold outside, as the taller of the two guided his diminutive companion through the less dense patches of snow. Nearing the door, the tall figure turned back to his friend, a benevolent smile on his youthful face.
“Here we are Dravin, in Gribble, right outside the Drunken Dragon Inn. Be cautious around here, I hear the Gribble Guard doesn’t have a very good sense of humor. I don’t want any little episode with you like we had in Lubton. Are we clear?” he said, a bemused look spreading across his face. Dravin, his three foot short companion, smiled awkwardly, his head slightly too big in proportion to the rest of his body.
“Aww…Joken, what did I do that was so bad in Lubton? I had a jolly time with that wench!”
“Yes...until her father discovered that poem you wrote for her. I think he probably must have been pretty distressed while he was reading about his daughter’s lips in such poetic and excruciating detail. You know that humans don’t take kindly to your Halfling kind!” replied Joken.
“Well…it would have worked if you hadn’t rushed me. That poem would have been safe, but I ran and it fell out of my pouch. Watch…one day I’ll find a human female that takes a fancy to midgets!”
“You shouldn’t call yourself that. Your kind is much more noble than mine. My kind is constantly warring, fighting, raping, stealing, plundering, and all manner of unseemly practices. Your kind have lived in peaceful existence with one another for millennia, just quietly farming.”
“I hate farming. The animals relieve themselves way too much than they should physically be able to. An’ when you eat them it takes four hours to chew on the bloody steak. The only good thing they had goin’ for them in Bumfluff Manor was the weed. Ok, fine, I’ll behave myself here. But if there are any blondes…” Dravin’s voice trailed off as he received a withering look from his human companion.
Pushing the rotting tavern door in, Joken and Dravin waltzed through the frame. A cavernous room greeted them. As Joken closed the door, a gush of wind blew in snow, sucking warmth from the tavern into the frigid night. As the door shut, the two friends looked around. The inn encircled them in an oval shape. A second level rose above the first; wooden barricades were built around this higher floor, and stopped drunkards from falling to the first floor. Wooden rafters hung over the two travelers’ snow flaked heads. All manor of human drank, danced, and reveled as Joken led Dravin through the convulsing crowd.
Reaching the oak bar, they faced the bartender. Dravin’s head just slightly rose above the counter, as he tried to crane his non-existent neck to regard the grisly barman. Joken pushed back his brown hair as he ordered Dragonmilk for he and Dravin.
“We don’t serve non-humans at the bar. You should clean your feet of dirt before you come.” Joken glared at the malicious bartender; rage bubbling up from a well deep within him. Shifting his cloak so the hilt of his broadsword just showed, Joken again asked the man for some drinks. The man hesitated for a moment, his grey eyes shifting uneasily. Deciding that he did not wish to aggravate the customer, the man passed over a couple of filled mugs.
“Alright, I’ll serve you. You’ll have to go in the back booths where all the dwarfs are. Shortie here will feel right at home.” he chuckled, as Dravin and Joken headed for the booths under the second floor’s walkway.
About a dozen tables consisted of the back booths. Most of the round tables were filled with gangs of dwarfs merrily drinking and singing. Their bushy beards appeared drenched in every form of alcohol ever conceived, as their armor clinked while they swayed in time to an old dwarf rhyme. A few slammed their hammers down on the wooden tables, a beat to sing along to:
‘Twas ten centuries ago this day, this day,
That down’ in the mines of ole’ they say, they say,
That the scalie Tinwing did pay, did pay,
For all he had done down ‘neath the clay, ‘neath the clay,
When the legions of fabled Pangard came to play, came to play,
The dragon did die to his dismay, his dismay,
And all the dwarfs in the ancient hall cried out, Horray! Horray!
Joken and Dravin wisely sat as far away from the dwarfs as possible, as the song ended with a brawl when a few teenage dwarfs had added a few rude lines of their own creation to the revered tune. Dravin watched his Dragonmilk burst into flames a few times, the flammable liquid gushing out of the tankard and scorching the table with its acidity.
Eyeing his sullen companion mischievously, Dravin took a huge swig of the dangerous substance, slamming the tankard back down with a shaking hand. Opening his mouth, the Halfling burped out a small fireball. Flames skidded across the abused surface of their table. The short-lived flames died out just before they reached Joken at the other side of the table. With his brown eyes glinting ruefully, Joken chugged his own Dragonmilk and slopped it back down on the protesting table. Opening his mouth, Joken burped, and a gigantic fireball spewed from his mouth. Dravin jumped, falling backwards over his chair, his rotund body seeming to bounce off the stone floor of the tavern. Joken’s fireball vanished in mid-air, unused to the cold temperature this far away from where it had been taken from its home in the udder of a jungle dragon.
Joken laughed uproariously as his friend groped for his chair that had fallen on top of him. Seating himself back down, the Halfling glared at his friend, and then began to sip the rest of his fiery milk in humbled silence.
Joken scanned the room, his eyes taking in the assorted humans that entertained themselves in the lighter and more comfortable areas of the tavern. A wench was stretched out among what looked like a whole contingent of some barbarous army; the men seemed to be enjoying themselves immensely. A singer sang in the center platform of the room, ignored by almost everyone in the musty tavern. All the other humans seemed not to notice the human that had accompanied the Halfling in.
Turning his attention back to Dravin, Joken smiled. He wouldn’t want to be anywhere else. His place was with Dravin, his loyal companion. If humankind didn’t want Dravin, Joken didn’t want humankind.
The entrance to the tavern was suddenly thrown open, several members of the Gribble guard strode in, their extravagant red capes billowing behind them. Joken automatically jumped up, his hardened battle instincts kicking in. Dravin looked up from his empty tankard, his blue eyes drunkenly watching the armored men march up to their table.
“We heard there was a Halfling infesting our humble village! Typical…its primitive mind couldn’t comprehend the signs all around Gribble that said NO HALFLINGS! You and your SHORT kind shouldn’t be permitted to breathe our air!” said the lead guard, his well kempt face sneering.
Before either of the companions could react, the dwarfs behind them ceased their arguing and sprinted to the guards, their beards bristling with indignation.
“Who…may we ask, are you calling SHORT? We are not short…we are vertically challenged…and I’ll have you be reminded that derogatory remarks to people under the height of four feet is not to be tolerated! You pink monkeys!” said the dwarf who was acting as leader. Turning to Joken and Dravin with a calm expression, the dwarf said:
“Alright, lads, that will suffice for racial slurs! I would advise that you two take out your weapons…assuming you have them, of course. I also advise that you chaps run far way from here…very far away…there is about to be a lot of blood, booze, and hopefully later babes! We’ll keep Gribble busy ‘till the sun comes up! Cheerio!”
No sooner had the words flowed from the dwarf’s mouth than Joken had unsheathed his broadsword and Dravin had brandished an uncountable number of lethal looking daggers. The Gribble guard had also reacted too, taking out their scimitars and waving them around as if to frighten off what they viewed as armored fur balls. The dwarfs leapt from their positions, causing the whole tavern to burst into a bar fight. Chairs were flung left and right as humans jumped at any excuse to rebel against their strict authorities. The dwarfs motioned for the two companions to run out the door. The fur balls banging large hammers on their helmeted skulls and the raucous human population distracted the Gribble guards. One guard caught sight of Dravin making his way through the tumultuous crowd. Aiming a miniature crossbow at the Halfling the guard smiled. Before he could pull the trigger however, Joken knocked the crossbow out of his hands, and ran him through with his broadsword, pushing the body into a crumpled heap on the floor.
Opening the tavern door quietly, the pair crept out into the blizzard. Shutting the door behind him, Dravin blew a big sigh of relief, as the noise of the ensuing bar fight filtered through the chipped door. Turning, he took Joken’s side. Whistling for the two ponies that had ridden them here, Joken and Dravin jumped on their small mounts. The two bolted into the dwindling light.
Riding a large pony, Joken struggled to keep his feet from dragging on the mounting snow. Watching Dravin drift off to sleep on the white pony trotting alongside him, Joken smiled inwardly. He watched his companion sleepily, almost not wanting to doze in fear of something happening to his friend. Dravin was all he had. Joken had felt a strong bond with Dravin almost immediately after meeting him, and they had made quick friends. Now, Joken knew that they would protect each other with their lives. They were truly brothers. Bonds like that were never severed. Joken watched his friend as his blue eyes closed. Dravin knew he would be safe with Joken close by. The night enveloped the duo, as the blizzard swirled around them unhampered…
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Streetwise(edited version)
Dear Brothers and Sisters (sisters...yeah...I wish ;)),
Ok....I finally wrote down some of what occured when some of us went down to see Greg in New Paltz. Great stuff, as you will see. Ok...I'd like Cliff's and Greg's...and anyone else's input as what to take out and put into this work. It's not done yet, only first draft you see. I also cut down the amount of characters so there are only three of us even though there were more of us there. I have also changed the names and some of what people said around.....but don't worry....even the Dog's name is thought out to some extent. So tell me what you think, help me edit! I think its ok...but it could be alot better. BTW: If any of the material offends you...like how I described you....its not my fault :) Anyway, call me.....
God Bless
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David Blundell
Creative Writing
Streetwise
A midsummer breeze blew colorful banners around, giving the street side buildings they were hanging from a slightly more festive look. Early evening sunlight cast shadows on the cobbled streets of the busy town. Cars passed the sidewalk, seldom slowing to glimpse the multitude of pedestrians that seemed to crawl out of the cracked granite and slate. Roadside buildings rose high above street level, their balconied second floors overlooking the growing Saturday evening nightlife.
I followed Gabriel and Percy as they weaved their way through the convulsing crowd. I could tell they had done this sort of thing many times before. Intimidated by the street denizens that seemed to cling to steps near the sidewalk, I made sure as not to get too far behind my friends. I looked down at gothic complexions of many of the pedestrians, fearing they might stab me or shove a marijuana joint down my throat any second. Eyes glanced up at me, irises barely noticeable behind all the deep black or purple eye shadow. Smoke billowing out of a nearby restaurant permeated my nostrils, reminding me of a church barbecue a few years ago.
Percy suddenly stopped, his spectacled face turning to a corner café to the left of us.
-I’m hungry-
-You’re always hungry, Sir Percival of the Dinner Table- I said jokingly.
-Well guys, we can stop for a few donuts…seeing as how we’re not doing much- added Gabe, settling himself down on the concrete steps that led up to the café.
-I’ll bring the donuts out here…the inside looks kinda sketchy- I said, as I opened the chipped door. Paying for three jelly donuts was simple: within only five minutes the three of us were sitting on the stone steps gorging ourselves on the snacks.
A dog sniffed near us, its floppy ears bouncing up and down jovially as he attempted to snap at my donut. Too slow to react, I jumped out of the way only to see seemingly lethal fangs clamp down on the jelly goodness that had once been mine. This amused my two companions immensely as the dog’s owner came running up to his furry companion. The man, about fifty, sheepishly turned to my laughing friends and me.
-Sorry! Sorry! Bud here can get really friendly sometimes. Can I buy you another donut?-
-It’s ok…I thought something like this might happen in New Paltz, I had forgotten how crowded it can get on the street on a Saturday night- interjected Gabe.
-Oh…you guys from around here then? asked the man, who took a seat on the stone steps next to us.
-Well, I grew up here, but these guys live down in Westchester. We met at a church down there-
-This is Gabe and Dave, and I am Percival, very nice to meet you- added Percy, holding out his once tattooed arm.
-Hey, nice to meet you all. Samuel’s my name. I live a couple blocks from here. So you live in Westchester now, Gabe?- said the man, Samuel
-No…I moved to Kansas City almost a year ago. I had an opportunity over there.- replied Gabe. I was waiting with baited breath for the hammer to fall. I wondered how Samuel would react.
-…. God’s really doing a lot over there with me- The hammer fell. I could almost here its metaphorical clanging sound resound in my head. The man did not seem at all perturbed, to my astonishment.
-You guys really religious or something then?- replied the man, a more interested expression on his bearded face now.
-I wouldn’t call myself religious. I see it as more of a relationship with my God. Without all the trappings of religion that I believe separate one from their God.-
-That is a good way of putting it. All these people ask me my ‘religion’ and I’m never exactly sure what to say…but you just said it in a nutshell- I added.
-So…who is your God then?- Samuel said, trying to keep Bud from molesting a passing pigeon.
-The God of my forefathers: Yahweh, Abba….Jehovah-
-So…your…. Protestants then?- asked Samuel tentatively, obviously confused by Gabe’s answer.
-Again, not quite. We like to be called just plain Christians. We don’t go by the strict laws of some Protestant churches, all we follow is the Bible…Mere Christianity- added Percy, theatrically waving his arms around.
-Who is your God?- Gabe shot back, an inquisitive look on his well kempt face.
-Well, I come from a Jewish background, and I believe some of the beliefs that go along with that faith, but also…well…I don’t believe in God in the conventional sense. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe in God like my persecuted ancestors. They really did have a strong faith; during the Holocaust…my father and mother were put into concentration camps…but God came through for them. and they were able to survive and move out here. My belief that God is…. more of an omnipotent presence. Like, I believe he is everywhere. There’s a part of him in all of us. We all have God in us.-The warning bells began to sound off in my head. I realized this had some truth to it, but I could tell in the direction this was going, and I knew I would disagree with it. –Most people don’t know that, and it’s only a certain number of people that become enlightened like that. Enlightened ones like Mohammed, Buddha and-
-Jesus said there was only one way to truly find God. He said “I am the way, the truth, and the life, no man comes to my Father but through me”. That is the one of our core beliefs. He wasn’t enlightened- he didn’t have to be- he knew who he was. He knew that he had to do a task for the Lord. He knew that people needed something before the end times- Gabe softly but firmly said.
-Well, I didn’t know he said… I believe in the end times too. Only, I believe that the world will end when people lose their egos. Like all wars, conflicts, and most troubles in the world, is due to people and their big egos. I think that if people just gave up their egos they’d be enlightened…and I believe…truly find God…truly find themselves-
-Well, definitely people won’t have egos anymore after the end of the world- joked Percy, causing both Gabe and I to chuckle under our breath.
The sun had begun to slowly set during our conversation, as most pedestrians faded back into the growing night. Now too late for shadows, I could feel chills running up my back as the heat of the day left the street to steam in the coolness of night. The sidewalk was now all but vacated, as cars became few and far between on the road in front of us.
-Let’s pray for you, Samuel, would you mind that?- questioned Gabe, standing from his stone seat to stretch. Obviously taken aback at first by my friend’s proposition, Samuel agreed as we all bowed our heads in reverence to God, whatever that might be for us. Gabe began to pray.
-Lord, I ask you to come to Samuel. Let him know who you are. Let him know who he truly is. Show him how much you love him. This conversation we had here on the street was no coincidence. No, you brought him here, to us, for a reason. I thank you for bringing him here tonight. I know he has been searching. Let him no that he no longer has to search. His quest is finally over. Let him know your love. Your agape! Amen.” We all uttered hushed amen’s, even Samuel though a much more feeble amen than Gabe’s.
-…. Thank you guys. Have a good night. Interesting to hear what you had to say. Enjoy New Paltz!- said Samuel, taking Bud by the leash and leisurely walking down the street, obviously musing on what had just transpired.
-God Bless!- I called after him, as I saw Bud’s tail disappear behind the corner of the café.
-Do you think he’ll find out the truth?- I asked Gabe.
-Yea….he will. The Lord has a plan for him. A rebirthing started here tonight.- With that, we all stood up and began to walk back the way we had came, as the café disappeared behind us. The café’s sign hung above my head, so I chanced a glance at its wooden frame and stopped dead in astonishment. Ariel’s Coffee House was scruffily scrawled on it, and Percy and I exchanged shocked glances. Jerusalem! I could see him mouth even through the darkness. Even I knew that sometimes Ariel was used as an poetic name for Jerusalem, the holiest city on earth. Israel was where it was all going to end.
-I will show you greater works than these, it is written. Come, the night is young! - quoted Gabe, a smile spreading above his dark goatee. I smiled as I began to stroll along the street, gazing at the now twinkling stars above me. Hallelujah!
Ok....I finally wrote down some of what occured when some of us went down to see Greg in New Paltz. Great stuff, as you will see. Ok...I'd like Cliff's and Greg's...and anyone else's input as what to take out and put into this work. It's not done yet, only first draft you see. I also cut down the amount of characters so there are only three of us even though there were more of us there. I have also changed the names and some of what people said around.....but don't worry....even the Dog's name is thought out to some extent. So tell me what you think, help me edit! I think its ok...but it could be alot better. BTW: If any of the material offends you...like how I described you....its not my fault :) Anyway, call me.....
God Bless
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David Blundell
Creative Writing
Streetwise
A midsummer breeze blew colorful banners around, giving the street side buildings they were hanging from a slightly more festive look. Early evening sunlight cast shadows on the cobbled streets of the busy town. Cars passed the sidewalk, seldom slowing to glimpse the multitude of pedestrians that seemed to crawl out of the cracked granite and slate. Roadside buildings rose high above street level, their balconied second floors overlooking the growing Saturday evening nightlife.
I followed Gabriel and Percy as they weaved their way through the convulsing crowd. I could tell they had done this sort of thing many times before. Intimidated by the street denizens that seemed to cling to steps near the sidewalk, I made sure as not to get too far behind my friends. I looked down at gothic complexions of many of the pedestrians, fearing they might stab me or shove a marijuana joint down my throat any second. Eyes glanced up at me, irises barely noticeable behind all the deep black or purple eye shadow. Smoke billowing out of a nearby restaurant permeated my nostrils, reminding me of a church barbecue a few years ago.
Percy suddenly stopped, his spectacled face turning to a corner café to the left of us.
-I’m hungry-
-You’re always hungry, Sir Percival of the Dinner Table- I said jokingly.
-Well guys, we can stop for a few donuts…seeing as how we’re not doing much- added Gabe, settling himself down on the concrete steps that led up to the café.
-I’ll bring the donuts out here…the inside looks kinda sketchy- I said, as I opened the chipped door. Paying for three jelly donuts was simple: within only five minutes the three of us were sitting on the stone steps gorging ourselves on the snacks.
A dog sniffed near us, its floppy ears bouncing up and down jovially as he attempted to snap at my donut. Too slow to react, I jumped out of the way only to see seemingly lethal fangs clamp down on the jelly goodness that had once been mine. This amused my two companions immensely as the dog’s owner came running up to his furry companion. The man, about fifty, sheepishly turned to my laughing friends and me.
-Sorry! Sorry! Bud here can get really friendly sometimes. Can I buy you another donut?-
-It’s ok…I thought something like this might happen in New Paltz, I had forgotten how crowded it can get on the street on a Saturday night- interjected Gabe.
-Oh…you guys from around here then? asked the man, who took a seat on the stone steps next to us.
-Well, I grew up here, but these guys live down in Westchester. We met at a church down there-
-This is Gabe and Dave, and I am Percival, very nice to meet you- added Percy, holding out his once tattooed arm.
-Hey, nice to meet you all. Samuel’s my name. I live a couple blocks from here. So you live in Westchester now, Gabe?- said the man, Samuel
-No…I moved to Kansas City almost a year ago. I had an opportunity over there.- replied Gabe. I was waiting with baited breath for the hammer to fall. I wondered how Samuel would react.
-…. God’s really doing a lot over there with me- The hammer fell. I could almost here its metaphorical clanging sound resound in my head. The man did not seem at all perturbed, to my astonishment.
-You guys really religious or something then?- replied the man, a more interested expression on his bearded face now.
-I wouldn’t call myself religious. I see it as more of a relationship with my God. Without all the trappings of religion that I believe separate one from their God.-
-That is a good way of putting it. All these people ask me my ‘religion’ and I’m never exactly sure what to say…but you just said it in a nutshell- I added.
-So…who is your God then?- Samuel said, trying to keep Bud from molesting a passing pigeon.
-The God of my forefathers: Yahweh, Abba….Jehovah-
-So…your…. Protestants then?- asked Samuel tentatively, obviously confused by Gabe’s answer.
-Again, not quite. We like to be called just plain Christians. We don’t go by the strict laws of some Protestant churches, all we follow is the Bible…Mere Christianity- added Percy, theatrically waving his arms around.
-Who is your God?- Gabe shot back, an inquisitive look on his well kempt face.
-Well, I come from a Jewish background, and I believe some of the beliefs that go along with that faith, but also…well…I don’t believe in God in the conventional sense. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe in God like my persecuted ancestors. They really did have a strong faith; during the Holocaust…my father and mother were put into concentration camps…but God came through for them. and they were able to survive and move out here. My belief that God is…. more of an omnipotent presence. Like, I believe he is everywhere. There’s a part of him in all of us. We all have God in us.-The warning bells began to sound off in my head. I realized this had some truth to it, but I could tell in the direction this was going, and I knew I would disagree with it. –Most people don’t know that, and it’s only a certain number of people that become enlightened like that. Enlightened ones like Mohammed, Buddha and-
-Jesus said there was only one way to truly find God. He said “I am the way, the truth, and the life, no man comes to my Father but through me”. That is the one of our core beliefs. He wasn’t enlightened- he didn’t have to be- he knew who he was. He knew that he had to do a task for the Lord. He knew that people needed something before the end times- Gabe softly but firmly said.
-Well, I didn’t know he said… I believe in the end times too. Only, I believe that the world will end when people lose their egos. Like all wars, conflicts, and most troubles in the world, is due to people and their big egos. I think that if people just gave up their egos they’d be enlightened…and I believe…truly find God…truly find themselves-
-Well, definitely people won’t have egos anymore after the end of the world- joked Percy, causing both Gabe and I to chuckle under our breath.
The sun had begun to slowly set during our conversation, as most pedestrians faded back into the growing night. Now too late for shadows, I could feel chills running up my back as the heat of the day left the street to steam in the coolness of night. The sidewalk was now all but vacated, as cars became few and far between on the road in front of us.
-Let’s pray for you, Samuel, would you mind that?- questioned Gabe, standing from his stone seat to stretch. Obviously taken aback at first by my friend’s proposition, Samuel agreed as we all bowed our heads in reverence to God, whatever that might be for us. Gabe began to pray.
-Lord, I ask you to come to Samuel. Let him know who you are. Let him know who he truly is. Show him how much you love him. This conversation we had here on the street was no coincidence. No, you brought him here, to us, for a reason. I thank you for bringing him here tonight. I know he has been searching. Let him no that he no longer has to search. His quest is finally over. Let him know your love. Your agape! Amen.” We all uttered hushed amen’s, even Samuel though a much more feeble amen than Gabe’s.
-…. Thank you guys. Have a good night. Interesting to hear what you had to say. Enjoy New Paltz!- said Samuel, taking Bud by the leash and leisurely walking down the street, obviously musing on what had just transpired.
-God Bless!- I called after him, as I saw Bud’s tail disappear behind the corner of the café.
-Do you think he’ll find out the truth?- I asked Gabe.
-Yea….he will. The Lord has a plan for him. A rebirthing started here tonight.- With that, we all stood up and began to walk back the way we had came, as the café disappeared behind us. The café’s sign hung above my head, so I chanced a glance at its wooden frame and stopped dead in astonishment. Ariel’s Coffee House was scruffily scrawled on it, and Percy and I exchanged shocked glances. Jerusalem! I could see him mouth even through the darkness. Even I knew that sometimes Ariel was used as an poetic name for Jerusalem, the holiest city on earth. Israel was where it was all going to end.
-I will show you greater works than these, it is written. Come, the night is young! - quoted Gabe, a smile spreading above his dark goatee. I smiled as I began to stroll along the street, gazing at the now twinkling stars above me. Hallelujah!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
System Switch
System Switch
In 1991, an interviewer from the music magazine Rolling Stone asked rock/folk legend Bob Dylan if he was happy after all of his successes in the music industry. The aged singer replied, “Happy is a Yuppie Word”. This is the premise for the alternate-inspirational band Switchfoot’s newest album Nothing is Sound. This San Diego originated band came from a largely surfing culture, thus their name is a surfing term. To a surfer, when you switch your feet on your board, you have a new perspective on the wave, and have a slightly different way of surfing when your feet are switched. The band took this to show how they have a slightly different outlook on life than most bands and artists in the music industry. Responsible for earlier hits such as “Meant to Live, Dare You to Move, and the Beautiful Letdown”, this band has risen to incorporate a much broader audience. Recorded mainly on the road on their seemingly never ending tours, Nothing is Sound has a more improvised feel to most of their other albums such as Learning to Breathe, New Way to be Human and the Beautiful Letdown. The lead singer of Switchfoot, Jon Foreman, ran with this Dylan quote, even writing a song by the same name to have this new album revolve around this thoughtful statement. From this originating seed, an album grew. Attempting to debunk all the normal accepted values of our western American society, Switchfoot talks about how cookie cutter our society has become, from commercialization to the corruption of politicians in our day and age. Even though this usually progressive band attempts to progress their music to a more global level, I believe their music does not progress very much from when their last album, the Beautiful Letdown. While their lyrics may stray from Letdown, their vocals and instrumental portions still sound very similar to their previous album. A few songs progress their musical style, such as the vocal and acoustic Blues and edgy rock single Stars, however only Daisy comes close to their usual standard on this album. The things that make these songs stand out is oftentimes their lyrics, which talk about the members of Switchfoot and their spiritual lives, it is also created to make people think about their lives and introspect. The music, especially Politicians in this album, is also to make people think about the world that surround them and the ways in which they can improve it.
Another new rock album that discusses in their music the hypocrisy our society is System of a Down’s new album, Mezmerize. This heavier rock band’s previous album, Toxicity, also discussed this theme, however many believe Mezmerize does this to greater and more profound effect. Songs about the never-ending scandal slideshow that is the televised media song, Violent Pornography uses a gratuitous metaphor to get across System’s views on how the media has become sensationalist. Anti-war songs such as B.Y.O.B. and Sad Statue compliment the rest of the album, adding to the anti-societal gist of Mezmerize. Lost in Hollywood also adds to this theme, however it is more analyzing the Hollywood and music industry of our age and how it has the tendency to corrupt people, both artists and audiences.
Both these alternate-Rock bands add a slightly different slant to the normal boundaries of what rock has evolved into today. Though vastly different in vocal and instrumental styles, both offer a different view of life than many other bands on the modern music industry.
In 1991, an interviewer from the music magazine Rolling Stone asked rock/folk legend Bob Dylan if he was happy after all of his successes in the music industry. The aged singer replied, “Happy is a Yuppie Word”. This is the premise for the alternate-inspirational band Switchfoot’s newest album Nothing is Sound. This San Diego originated band came from a largely surfing culture, thus their name is a surfing term. To a surfer, when you switch your feet on your board, you have a new perspective on the wave, and have a slightly different way of surfing when your feet are switched. The band took this to show how they have a slightly different outlook on life than most bands and artists in the music industry. Responsible for earlier hits such as “Meant to Live, Dare You to Move, and the Beautiful Letdown”, this band has risen to incorporate a much broader audience. Recorded mainly on the road on their seemingly never ending tours, Nothing is Sound has a more improvised feel to most of their other albums such as Learning to Breathe, New Way to be Human and the Beautiful Letdown. The lead singer of Switchfoot, Jon Foreman, ran with this Dylan quote, even writing a song by the same name to have this new album revolve around this thoughtful statement. From this originating seed, an album grew. Attempting to debunk all the normal accepted values of our western American society, Switchfoot talks about how cookie cutter our society has become, from commercialization to the corruption of politicians in our day and age. Even though this usually progressive band attempts to progress their music to a more global level, I believe their music does not progress very much from when their last album, the Beautiful Letdown. While their lyrics may stray from Letdown, their vocals and instrumental portions still sound very similar to their previous album. A few songs progress their musical style, such as the vocal and acoustic Blues and edgy rock single Stars, however only Daisy comes close to their usual standard on this album. The things that make these songs stand out is oftentimes their lyrics, which talk about the members of Switchfoot and their spiritual lives, it is also created to make people think about their lives and introspect. The music, especially Politicians in this album, is also to make people think about the world that surround them and the ways in which they can improve it.
Another new rock album that discusses in their music the hypocrisy our society is System of a Down’s new album, Mezmerize. This heavier rock band’s previous album, Toxicity, also discussed this theme, however many believe Mezmerize does this to greater and more profound effect. Songs about the never-ending scandal slideshow that is the televised media song, Violent Pornography uses a gratuitous metaphor to get across System’s views on how the media has become sensationalist. Anti-war songs such as B.Y.O.B. and Sad Statue compliment the rest of the album, adding to the anti-societal gist of Mezmerize. Lost in Hollywood also adds to this theme, however it is more analyzing the Hollywood and music industry of our age and how it has the tendency to corrupt people, both artists and audiences.
Both these alternate-Rock bands add a slightly different slant to the normal boundaries of what rock has evolved into today. Though vastly different in vocal and instrumental styles, both offer a different view of life than many other bands on the modern music industry.
Friday, September 23, 2005
Walking
Brothers,
Ok.....so I emailed that dark poem Anderson to the teacher who does the literary magazine at my school. It bounces back because the email on our school system was broken. A sort of sign, I think, kind of like, God tryna tell me to rewrite, slightly less angry....because I'm all bout the fileo...and Anderson was a little to angry at myself. So yea, I'm gonna reuse from lines from Anderson, but this is be a better poem.
God Bless
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Walking
Sitting out on the sidelines,
Outside of society's guidelines,
Alone; rolling through town,
Shy; not making a sound,
Those lonely days have passed,
My solitude constricts me like a steel cast,
Fed up with cold brick walls,
You'll hear my voice ricoocheting from these high school halls,
I can't take this solitude anymore,
I'll come thundering down like the mythological Thor,
Some things I did in the past were wrong,
This is why I'm singing this remorseful song,
My jail bars burst open,
I was tired of all the self mopin',
My anxious energy was used for evil deeds,
Then angels began planting the right seeds,
The darkness rolled back,
After a giant spiritual thundercrack,
I stepped through the door,
To a place I'd never truly been before,
A man stands there and smiles,
He pushes my wrongs away in piles,
He knows I'm not accepted on this earth,
He knows why I've cried to him since deformed birth,
He sees through this school,
How all the girls and boys can be cruel,
When theres a bunch of flowers near a cactus,
If they speak; the flowers lose their social status,
His minions send us dreams,
We see birght ethereal gleams,
Through him I'm spitting rhymes,
I'm jumping over this caste system's borderlines,
I'm the resident cripple,
And I'm starting a righteous ripple,
I still can see that man outside my gate,
He and I are linked by fate,
He knows my every thought,
He knows that in the wrong things I have sought,
He understands my deepest desires,
That sometimes I get caught in the meaningless crossfires,
I've been discarded by the discarded,
I can't believe that some of you even speculate if I'm retarded
Perhaps it's cuz I am,
I flirt like a battering ram,
Nobody seems to listen,
Perhaps they'll see his holy sword glisten,
I've found a reason to decree
That I want to be; his strong and fruitful tree,
I let in the sunlight,
My savior's given me his sight,
In a moment all sins I commited fades away,
And I'm waiting for that beutiful day,
When I am no longer desperately stalking,
When I'll be strolling down the mountain, walking, walking, walking....
Ok.....so I emailed that dark poem Anderson to the teacher who does the literary magazine at my school. It bounces back because the email on our school system was broken. A sort of sign, I think, kind of like, God tryna tell me to rewrite, slightly less angry....because I'm all bout the fileo...and Anderson was a little to angry at myself. So yea, I'm gonna reuse from lines from Anderson, but this is be a better poem.
God Bless
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Walking
Sitting out on the sidelines,
Outside of society's guidelines,
Alone; rolling through town,
Shy; not making a sound,
Those lonely days have passed,
My solitude constricts me like a steel cast,
Fed up with cold brick walls,
You'll hear my voice ricoocheting from these high school halls,
I can't take this solitude anymore,
I'll come thundering down like the mythological Thor,
Some things I did in the past were wrong,
This is why I'm singing this remorseful song,
My jail bars burst open,
I was tired of all the self mopin',
My anxious energy was used for evil deeds,
Then angels began planting the right seeds,
The darkness rolled back,
After a giant spiritual thundercrack,
I stepped through the door,
To a place I'd never truly been before,
A man stands there and smiles,
He pushes my wrongs away in piles,
He knows I'm not accepted on this earth,
He knows why I've cried to him since deformed birth,
He sees through this school,
How all the girls and boys can be cruel,
When theres a bunch of flowers near a cactus,
If they speak; the flowers lose their social status,
His minions send us dreams,
We see birght ethereal gleams,
Through him I'm spitting rhymes,
I'm jumping over this caste system's borderlines,
I'm the resident cripple,
And I'm starting a righteous ripple,
I still can see that man outside my gate,
He and I are linked by fate,
He knows my every thought,
He knows that in the wrong things I have sought,
He understands my deepest desires,
That sometimes I get caught in the meaningless crossfires,
I've been discarded by the discarded,
I can't believe that some of you even speculate if I'm retarded
Perhaps it's cuz I am,
I flirt like a battering ram,
Nobody seems to listen,
Perhaps they'll see his holy sword glisten,
I've found a reason to decree
That I want to be; his strong and fruitful tree,
I let in the sunlight,
My savior's given me his sight,
In a moment all sins I commited fades away,
And I'm waiting for that beutiful day,
When I am no longer desperately stalking,
When I'll be strolling down the mountain, walking, walking, walking....
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Lovelorn
Lovelorn
An overcast sky hung over a small suburban main street, casting a gray aura on the bustling sidewalk and road. Pedestrians hurried along the pavement, some with small children following them, others with bags of shopping dangling from their flustered arms. Cars passed by the pavement, their wheels rolling over a steaming tarmac of the road. A summer storm was inevitable, almost as if teasing the thirsty village. Clouds seemed to tumble over each other, a jumble of darkness threatening the earth, almost as if trying to oppress the usual happiness of summer. A tension filled the town, as the storm tried to snap out of its slumber.
I shuffled down the street uncomfortably, the heat enveloping me in a bubble of exhaustion. My bones stuck together in the humidity, almost as If glued to my sides. I fondly passed by all the store signs that I had long since memorized. The wooden boards read things like: George’s hardware store, and Blue Sun cosmetics. The bakery had its menu for the day scrawled onto an easel chalkboard, and I attempted to picture a Great Wall of Chocolate.
Turning the corner on the edge of the street, I got a glimpse of green. Frozen, I could hear my heart begin to thump like the dinner bell in a jail. I knew I could not be mistaken, their standing in the center of the sidewalk serenely, was radiance herself. She was gazing at a bird flying around up in the overcast sky, her amber eyes perusing the bird swooping and diving. Her perfectly tan skin contrasted the dullness of the day, causing my palms to become clammy uncontrollably. She truly was a unicorn among the mundane horses that were other girls.
I continued my slow and steady gait down the pavement, daring not to breathe so close to her. I wished that she would at least wave to me, but her mind was on other things. Every time I saw her, my body seemed to go into temporary shock. I wanted to say hi or at least wave to her, but my throat was dried up and my arm stayed stubbornly to my side.
Passing her by without a word, I inwardly seethed at my shyness. Trapped into being her distant admirer, I wondered if I could ever bring up the nerve to greet her. Knowing that this would never be, I accepted my caged circumstances. Disappointment boiled up within me, as the heat engulfed me…
An overcast sky hung over a small suburban main street, casting a gray aura on the bustling sidewalk and road. Pedestrians hurried along the pavement, some with small children following them, others with bags of shopping dangling from their flustered arms. Cars passed by the pavement, their wheels rolling over a steaming tarmac of the road. A summer storm was inevitable, almost as if teasing the thirsty village. Clouds seemed to tumble over each other, a jumble of darkness threatening the earth, almost as if trying to oppress the usual happiness of summer. A tension filled the town, as the storm tried to snap out of its slumber.
I shuffled down the street uncomfortably, the heat enveloping me in a bubble of exhaustion. My bones stuck together in the humidity, almost as If glued to my sides. I fondly passed by all the store signs that I had long since memorized. The wooden boards read things like: George’s hardware store, and Blue Sun cosmetics. The bakery had its menu for the day scrawled onto an easel chalkboard, and I attempted to picture a Great Wall of Chocolate.
Turning the corner on the edge of the street, I got a glimpse of green. Frozen, I could hear my heart begin to thump like the dinner bell in a jail. I knew I could not be mistaken, their standing in the center of the sidewalk serenely, was radiance herself. She was gazing at a bird flying around up in the overcast sky, her amber eyes perusing the bird swooping and diving. Her perfectly tan skin contrasted the dullness of the day, causing my palms to become clammy uncontrollably. She truly was a unicorn among the mundane horses that were other girls.
I continued my slow and steady gait down the pavement, daring not to breathe so close to her. I wished that she would at least wave to me, but her mind was on other things. Every time I saw her, my body seemed to go into temporary shock. I wanted to say hi or at least wave to her, but my throat was dried up and my arm stayed stubbornly to my side.
Passing her by without a word, I inwardly seethed at my shyness. Trapped into being her distant admirer, I wondered if I could ever bring up the nerve to greet her. Knowing that this would never be, I accepted my caged circumstances. Disappointment boiled up within me, as the heat engulfed me…
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
The Chronicles of Gimp (Edited version)
Dear Brothers,
Here is a story I wrote for my creative writing class. The assignment was to develop a character. So i did, heavily based on me Enjoy
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David Blundell
The Chronicles of Gimp
Klingon Proverb: “Pa’ ghati ghobe’ quv Daq’, There is no honor in self-pity.”
Life really can really take a toll sometimes. You feel like you’ll collapse if you take another step. No pun intended. Things seem to pile on top of you so that you feel like a suffocated Tribble. Sometimes you wish you could be beamed out of the suburban apocalypse you call your life.
That was the feeling I got…again…one day in late August. The sun was beating down as usual, causing me to sweat profusely as I rolled down a cracked and well-used sidewalk. My chair was once again in its never-ending state of brokenness, and my engine whined constantly as if it were C-3PO. I arrived at my destination, the local food mart as the sun began to falter slightly at four o’clock in the afternoon. Han Solo in the falcon would be hard pressed to beat the time I had just made it from my house to the mart, I thought to myself gleefully. There I go geeking out again…
Wheeling myself into the mart, I was refreshed from the sweltering heat outside by air conditioners that flooded the mart with a breeze akin to paradise on a day like this. A cool feeling enveloped my substantial girth, as I made toward my most frequented aisle. A gaggle of giggling girls from my high school passed me by, not even acknowledging my existence as they strode down the aisle, their manicured bodies glistening in the artificial light. Being at belly-button level had its advantages, at least.
Halting at the candy aisle, I smiled as my eyes purveyed the luscious Mars Bars and Twinkies. Looking up at the rows upon rows of unopened bars, I swore under my breath. Typical! My favorite bar, Milky Way, was just inches out of my reach. I fervently wished I were force-sensitive. You will come down; I thought at the bar, waving my hand frantically; but it just stayed where it was as if mocking my attempt to claim it.
Settling for the M&M’s that were just below the Milky Way, I hurried to the checkout counter. A middle aged woman was right in front of me in the checkout line, her glasses almost slipping off her prominent nose. I struggled to retrieve the money that was in the back pocket of my shorts. The woman turned to me and saw that I was having trouble retrieving it. Snatching the bag of M&M’s from my deformed hand, she slapped it on the counter and pulled a dollar from her own wallet. “I’ll pay for that, enjoy these!” she said, trotting out of the mart before I could thank her.
The man behind the counter shrugged and passed me the candy bag. Crashing into the door angrily, I rolled out into the still-blazing heat. Why do people do that? I thought angrily to myself. I realized that she was trying to be kind, but sometimes I wish people wouldn’t be so generous to me as they are. Glancing at the disabled spaces outside the mart, I glared at the white figure etched into each of the blue signs. Not all of us have a big ass like that!
Words soon began to whirl around in my head like a hurricane of insecurity. I screamed to God, wishing that he would hear my bitter cries. I wished I could be a Kirk, destroying foes left and right. I guess it was not meant to be. Anger still raged through me as I rambled on down the road, thinking of bubbles and stars. The only consoling thought that ran through my mind as I gazed out at the pink sky was that a Stairway led to heaven….
Here is a story I wrote for my creative writing class. The assignment was to develop a character. So i did, heavily based on me Enjoy
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David Blundell
The Chronicles of Gimp
Klingon Proverb: “Pa’ ghati ghobe’ quv Daq’, There is no honor in self-pity.”
Life really can really take a toll sometimes. You feel like you’ll collapse if you take another step. No pun intended. Things seem to pile on top of you so that you feel like a suffocated Tribble. Sometimes you wish you could be beamed out of the suburban apocalypse you call your life.
That was the feeling I got…again…one day in late August. The sun was beating down as usual, causing me to sweat profusely as I rolled down a cracked and well-used sidewalk. My chair was once again in its never-ending state of brokenness, and my engine whined constantly as if it were C-3PO. I arrived at my destination, the local food mart as the sun began to falter slightly at four o’clock in the afternoon. Han Solo in the falcon would be hard pressed to beat the time I had just made it from my house to the mart, I thought to myself gleefully. There I go geeking out again…
Wheeling myself into the mart, I was refreshed from the sweltering heat outside by air conditioners that flooded the mart with a breeze akin to paradise on a day like this. A cool feeling enveloped my substantial girth, as I made toward my most frequented aisle. A gaggle of giggling girls from my high school passed me by, not even acknowledging my existence as they strode down the aisle, their manicured bodies glistening in the artificial light. Being at belly-button level had its advantages, at least.
Halting at the candy aisle, I smiled as my eyes purveyed the luscious Mars Bars and Twinkies. Looking up at the rows upon rows of unopened bars, I swore under my breath. Typical! My favorite bar, Milky Way, was just inches out of my reach. I fervently wished I were force-sensitive. You will come down; I thought at the bar, waving my hand frantically; but it just stayed where it was as if mocking my attempt to claim it.
Settling for the M&M’s that were just below the Milky Way, I hurried to the checkout counter. A middle aged woman was right in front of me in the checkout line, her glasses almost slipping off her prominent nose. I struggled to retrieve the money that was in the back pocket of my shorts. The woman turned to me and saw that I was having trouble retrieving it. Snatching the bag of M&M’s from my deformed hand, she slapped it on the counter and pulled a dollar from her own wallet. “I’ll pay for that, enjoy these!” she said, trotting out of the mart before I could thank her.
The man behind the counter shrugged and passed me the candy bag. Crashing into the door angrily, I rolled out into the still-blazing heat. Why do people do that? I thought angrily to myself. I realized that she was trying to be kind, but sometimes I wish people wouldn’t be so generous to me as they are. Glancing at the disabled spaces outside the mart, I glared at the white figure etched into each of the blue signs. Not all of us have a big ass like that!
Words soon began to whirl around in my head like a hurricane of insecurity. I screamed to God, wishing that he would hear my bitter cries. I wished I could be a Kirk, destroying foes left and right. I guess it was not meant to be. Anger still raged through me as I rambled on down the road, thinking of bubbles and stars. The only consoling thought that ran through my mind as I gazed out at the pink sky was that a Stairway led to heaven….
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
"Two Little Beutiful Girls" -Eminem, Mocking(?)bird
Hi again, brothers. This is an addition to my last blog, which was about camp. I have stuff to talk about that happened in camp too, which have helped me to see God more clearly, and to trust in him more. (I hope :)). Anyway, yeah, as usual, these two related stories both deal with girls at my camp. Two seperate girls, to girls that I am alot closer to because of the events of this summer, well, with atleast one of them I am alot closer.
Okay, the first instance occured toward the beginning of the summer at camp this year. I've known this girl for about...ehhh....four years. We've been friends three of those years, good friends for two years. She's pretty...and thats the only reason why I liked her...more than a friend...at the beginning of the summer. So she asked me out cuz she heard I liked her from my councilor..yes, i seek council from my camp councilors, they rly cool. But, it turns out her mom didn't want her going out on a date- cuz she's too young..w/e that means :)- shes gonna b a freshman in high school this year. So then she's like....why don't we go out behind my mom's back? And I'm like- because I have morals. So i told her we should repsect her mom...and that we shouldn't do it behind her mother's back. I told her exactly that- and rolled away. You know when you feel like you need your own personal movie soundtrack to musically accompany your day? Yea, well I felt like that then. So, yea, this girl has..after this whole thing, gone behind her mother's back and is goin out wit another guy who her mom spacifically told her not to be around....but thats enough gossip. God showed me something before then that scared me bout this girl too. You know how girls get those fake tatoos written on them sometimes? Well, yea, this girl had a tatoo version of the yin-yang on her arm...she probably doesn't even know what it means...but I subsequently looked it up, and among other things, it signifies the ancient Chinese belief that there are no morals, or no right and wrong. Perhaps God was tryna warn me about how this girl decieves her mother? So, now we still friends, but I;m cautious, and pray for her....cuz she's confused...to say the least....not that I have got it all figured out, but, she needs Jesus, definetly.....
Now, the next girl I've been friends with for two years. I have talked to her everdyay online all of last year, cept for the month she refused to talk to me, on good reason, because mid-year I asked her out three times, and each time she said no, and each time got progressively more angry at me. Anyway, cuz she's a nice person she forgave me, and me and her got really close at camp, and after the thing with tryna get me to go out with the other girl...we decided to go out...cuz she fell wheels ova wheels in love with me (lol, just kidding, but she really likes me). So we "went out" for like two days....and we held hands and the like...nothing too serious.....but i really like her. Cuz shes funny (good sense of humor, she actually laughs at all my lame jokes :)) We also have a real connection, we really understand each other. But, the problem is she is not saved...like I asked her what her feelings on God were (thats how comfortable we are), and she said she was not sure. So i kinda stayed with her, waiting on God a bit, like I knew I wasn't really supposed to be in a dating relationship with a nonbeliever, but it wasn't like I was getting married or anything?....hehehe, so I had a dream one night, and the message I got from it from God was to slowly break up with her,....kindly and smoothly. So I talked to Greg from Kansas City about it, and he said I had to make it clear that it wasn't cuz the thrill of the hunt of asking her out was why I was breaking up with her. So I decided to take an approach of slowly backing away from her, without shocking her with dumping her in all of the third day we were "going out" (yes....the fun filled years of teenager!!!) Illadvisedly I told another friend and five seconds later this friend told her...she wasn;t as mad as I thought she was gonna be, I mean she cried a bit...(no, not that much, like tears welled up in her almond eyes...and i felt like a bastard) But the next day I was able to explain to her, atleast to some extent, why I had to break off the whole thing with her. I explained to her that she and I felt differently about God, and that my being christian was an important...no, the most important, aspect of my life, and I could not contradict that with my every day actions, even if it was a teenage "We're going out!" thing. Now me and this girl are closer than we've ever been, and she's one of my best friends, so it didn't turn out badly at all. And who knows, the school year is just beginning.......
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Okay, the first instance occured toward the beginning of the summer at camp this year. I've known this girl for about...ehhh....four years. We've been friends three of those years, good friends for two years. She's pretty...and thats the only reason why I liked her...more than a friend...at the beginning of the summer. So she asked me out cuz she heard I liked her from my councilor..yes, i seek council from my camp councilors, they rly cool. But, it turns out her mom didn't want her going out on a date- cuz she's too young..w/e that means :)- shes gonna b a freshman in high school this year. So then she's like....why don't we go out behind my mom's back? And I'm like- because I have morals. So i told her we should repsect her mom...and that we shouldn't do it behind her mother's back. I told her exactly that- and rolled away. You know when you feel like you need your own personal movie soundtrack to musically accompany your day? Yea, well I felt like that then. So, yea, this girl has..after this whole thing, gone behind her mother's back and is goin out wit another guy who her mom spacifically told her not to be around....but thats enough gossip. God showed me something before then that scared me bout this girl too. You know how girls get those fake tatoos written on them sometimes? Well, yea, this girl had a tatoo version of the yin-yang on her arm...she probably doesn't even know what it means...but I subsequently looked it up, and among other things, it signifies the ancient Chinese belief that there are no morals, or no right and wrong. Perhaps God was tryna warn me about how this girl decieves her mother? So, now we still friends, but I;m cautious, and pray for her....cuz she's confused...to say the least....not that I have got it all figured out, but, she needs Jesus, definetly.....
Now, the next girl I've been friends with for two years. I have talked to her everdyay online all of last year, cept for the month she refused to talk to me, on good reason, because mid-year I asked her out three times, and each time she said no, and each time got progressively more angry at me. Anyway, cuz she's a nice person she forgave me, and me and her got really close at camp, and after the thing with tryna get me to go out with the other girl...we decided to go out...cuz she fell wheels ova wheels in love with me (lol, just kidding, but she really likes me). So we "went out" for like two days....and we held hands and the like...nothing too serious.....but i really like her. Cuz shes funny (good sense of humor, she actually laughs at all my lame jokes :)) We also have a real connection, we really understand each other. But, the problem is she is not saved...like I asked her what her feelings on God were (thats how comfortable we are), and she said she was not sure. So i kinda stayed with her, waiting on God a bit, like I knew I wasn't really supposed to be in a dating relationship with a nonbeliever, but it wasn't like I was getting married or anything?....hehehe, so I had a dream one night, and the message I got from it from God was to slowly break up with her,....kindly and smoothly. So I talked to Greg from Kansas City about it, and he said I had to make it clear that it wasn't cuz the thrill of the hunt of asking her out was why I was breaking up with her. So I decided to take an approach of slowly backing away from her, without shocking her with dumping her in all of the third day we were "going out" (yes....the fun filled years of teenager!!!) Illadvisedly I told another friend and five seconds later this friend told her...she wasn;t as mad as I thought she was gonna be, I mean she cried a bit...(no, not that much, like tears welled up in her almond eyes...and i felt like a bastard) But the next day I was able to explain to her, atleast to some extent, why I had to break off the whole thing with her. I explained to her that she and I felt differently about God, and that my being christian was an important...no, the most important, aspect of my life, and I could not contradict that with my every day actions, even if it was a teenage "We're going out!" thing. Now me and this girl are closer than we've ever been, and she's one of my best friends, so it didn't turn out badly at all. And who knows, the school year is just beginning.......
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
Gone; Like Summer break is gone....
Hello peeps. I apologize for not blogging sooner. I was busy going to camp and stuff. Wow....six weeks has gone by very fast....depressing in a sense. Camp was fun, I love my peeps there. The counciors and other campers are among my closest and best freinds. It's a camp for people wit disabilities, they vary among the kids, some like me, are physical, and are more obvious than others, who have mental or emotional disabilites. All the people there are so awesome though, so much so, that I've been goin there for the past five or six years. (Still debating that with one of my councilors :)) People aren't so judgemental there as they are at school, for instance, its just....we are all really really good freinds. So much so, we're as close as the Fellowship of the Ring was. We are a tightly knit group, specially my particular group. We are all so close, we're brothers and sisters...we';ve known each other for years now....its just....something really special that happens at that camp......and now its over........I know i gotta move on, and I know Jc's always gonna be right here with me, my best freind, but its just.....at school, I mean, I talk to peeps online...but that basically the extent of my contact with peers at my skool, I mean, this is partly my fault, but its just difficult.....considering my situation, im the only really obviously physically disabled person at my school, as of last year, atleast. I dunno, it seems I'm always looking up at my peers, cuz im always sitting down in my chair, and i kno every person feels this at Hs, but I feel a rly strong sense of inferiority right now lets just say......and I got no clue what to do bout it.....anyway....gonna go.....
God bless
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
DreamWeaver
DreamWeaver
I have dreamed a dream,
It leads me beside a quiet stream,
Visions dance before me in the night,
Filling me with a beacon light,
Messages from the man of sand
Coming from the highland,
When all that surrounds me seems drab,
He swipes away the bitter nightmares of Mab,
Without him I would be confused,
He directs me in the ways I can be used,
He is my eternal guide,
He is always close by my side,
Dreamweaver,
Mystery revealer,
He is my solace,
He is my Morpheus….
I have dreamed a dream,
It leads me beside a quiet stream,
Visions dance before me in the night,
Filling me with a beacon light,
Messages from the man of sand
Coming from the highland,
When all that surrounds me seems drab,
He swipes away the bitter nightmares of Mab,
Without him I would be confused,
He directs me in the ways I can be used,
He is my eternal guide,
He is always close by my side,
Dreamweaver,
Mystery revealer,
He is my solace,
He is my Morpheus….
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Silent Scream
This is a poem that came to me in the middle of the night a few days ago. It is clear what it is about. Will post another blog soon. Let the words inspire you!!!
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Silent Scream
I hear a youthful cry,
Rising up into a blood-red sky,
Slaughter of a multitude,
Before eating their first morsel of food,
An injustice spread throughout the land,
Life spilled senselessly on the sand,
A population jaded,
Their former morals faded,
The line between right and wrong deceitfully blurred,
Unjust and misplaced rights inferred,
A generation of youth,
Wiped out as proof,
The darkness is spreading,
Its lies and cobwebs threading,
So as the blood continues to flow,
I cry out; LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!
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Silent Scream
I hear a youthful cry,
Rising up into a blood-red sky,
Slaughter of a multitude,
Before eating their first morsel of food,
An injustice spread throughout the land,
Life spilled senselessly on the sand,
A population jaded,
Their former morals faded,
The line between right and wrong deceitfully blurred,
Unjust and misplaced rights inferred,
A generation of youth,
Wiped out as proof,
The darkness is spreading,
Its lies and cobwebs threading,
So as the blood continues to flow,
I cry out; LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
God is Good
Dear Brothers,
GOD IS GOOD!!!!! So i got camp starting on monday. Btw, this is the most awesome camp...this will be my fifth year going. I love this camp so much...i cant describe it. I love swimming, we go everyday, when I swim its rly the only time i can actually move around unrestrained and unfetterd. Above all though, especially after my first year, the best thing about this camp is the people. The councilors, the campers, everyone...I have been truly blessed going there these past few years. I have made some really good freindships over there the last years. We're all really close...almost like the fellowship of the ring, i guess you could say. Especially with alot of the councilors, I've become really good freinds with them. When I feel sad or rejected at my school, I always think of them, and it cheers me up....usually.....
Anyway, this past yr, one of my favorite councilors wasn't going to come back...grad school or something. So I prayed about it these past couple of weeks, and vwalah (is that how u spell it?) and hes comin back to camp. Though he wasn't sure if he was going to be in our group, so i prayed this prayer: I just prayed that God would put people in my group that he wants to be in my group, no more, no less. God put that councilor, and the other like five best councilors in my group that should definetly be in some sort of hall of fame are all going to be back in my group, with all of us campers. I just wanna thank God, because that was awesome. God really has a hand in my life, and when I pray, he answers, he is faithful. No doubt. Anyway, peace out!!!
God Bless
leskald/elscribe/spiky (something the girls at camp have nicknamed me :))
GOD IS GOOD!!!!! So i got camp starting on monday. Btw, this is the most awesome camp...this will be my fifth year going. I love this camp so much...i cant describe it. I love swimming, we go everyday, when I swim its rly the only time i can actually move around unrestrained and unfetterd. Above all though, especially after my first year, the best thing about this camp is the people. The councilors, the campers, everyone...I have been truly blessed going there these past few years. I have made some really good freindships over there the last years. We're all really close...almost like the fellowship of the ring, i guess you could say. Especially with alot of the councilors, I've become really good freinds with them. When I feel sad or rejected at my school, I always think of them, and it cheers me up....usually.....
Anyway, this past yr, one of my favorite councilors wasn't going to come back...grad school or something. So I prayed about it these past couple of weeks, and vwalah (is that how u spell it?) and hes comin back to camp. Though he wasn't sure if he was going to be in our group, so i prayed this prayer: I just prayed that God would put people in my group that he wants to be in my group, no more, no less. God put that councilor, and the other like five best councilors in my group that should definetly be in some sort of hall of fame are all going to be back in my group, with all of us campers. I just wanna thank God, because that was awesome. God really has a hand in my life, and when I pray, he answers, he is faithful. No doubt. Anyway, peace out!!!
God Bless
leskald/elscribe/spiky (something the girls at camp have nicknamed me :))
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