"Two Little Beutiful Girls" -Eminem, Mocking(?)bird

Hi again, brothers. This is an addition to my last blog, which was about camp. I have stuff to talk about that happened in camp too, which have helped me to see God more clearly, and to trust in him more. (I hope :)). Anyway, yeah, as usual, these two related stories both deal with girls at my camp. Two seperate girls, to girls that I am alot closer to because of the events of this summer, well, with atleast one of them I am alot closer.

Okay, the first instance occured toward the beginning of the summer at camp this year. I've known this girl for about...ehhh....four years. We've been friends three of those years, good friends for two years. She's pretty...and thats the only reason why I liked her...more than a friend...at the beginning of the summer. So she asked me out cuz she heard I liked her from my councilor..yes, i seek council from my camp councilors, they rly cool. But, it turns out her mom didn't want her going out on a date- cuz she's too young..w/e that means :)- shes gonna b a freshman in high school this year. So then she's like....why don't we go out behind my mom's back? And I'm like- because I have morals. So i told her we should repsect her mom...and that we shouldn't do it behind her mother's back. I told her exactly that- and rolled away. You know when you feel like you need your own personal movie soundtrack to musically accompany your day? Yea, well I felt like that then. So, yea, this girl has..after this whole thing, gone behind her mother's back and is goin out wit another guy who her mom spacifically told her not to be around....but thats enough gossip. God showed me something before then that scared me bout this girl too. You know how girls get those fake tatoos written on them sometimes? Well, yea, this girl had a tatoo version of the yin-yang on her arm...she probably doesn't even know what it means...but I subsequently looked it up, and among other things, it signifies the ancient Chinese belief that there are no morals, or no right and wrong. Perhaps God was tryna warn me about how this girl decieves her mother? So, now we still friends, but I;m cautious, and pray for her....cuz she's confused...to say the least....not that I have got it all figured out, but, she needs Jesus, definetly.....

Now, the next girl I've been friends with for two years. I have talked to her everdyay online all of last year, cept for the month she refused to talk to me, on good reason, because mid-year I asked her out three times, and each time she said no, and each time got progressively more angry at me. Anyway, cuz she's a nice person she forgave me, and me and her got really close at camp, and after the thing with tryna get me to go out with the other girl...we decided to go out...cuz she fell wheels ova wheels in love with me (lol, just kidding, but she really likes me). So we "went out" for like two days....and we held hands and the like...nothing too serious.....but i really like her. Cuz shes funny (good sense of humor, she actually laughs at all my lame jokes :)) We also have a real connection, we really understand each other. But, the problem is she is not saved...like I asked her what her feelings on God were (thats how comfortable we are), and she said she was not sure. So i kinda stayed with her, waiting on God a bit, like I knew I wasn't really supposed to be in a dating relationship with a nonbeliever, but it wasn't like I was getting married or anything?....hehehe, so I had a dream one night, and the message I got from it from God was to slowly break up with her,....kindly and smoothly. So I talked to Greg from Kansas City about it, and he said I had to make it clear that it wasn't cuz the thrill of the hunt of asking her out was why I was breaking up with her. So I decided to take an approach of slowly backing away from her, without shocking her with dumping her in all of the third day we were "going out" (yes....the fun filled years of teenager!!!) Illadvisedly I told another friend and five seconds later this friend told her...she wasn;t as mad as I thought she was gonna be, I mean she cried a bit...(no, not that much, like tears welled up in her almond eyes...and i felt like a bastard) But the next day I was able to explain to her, atleast to some extent, why I had to break off the whole thing with her. I explained to her that she and I felt differently about God, and that my being christian was an important...no, the most important, aspect of my life, and I could not contradict that with my every day actions, even if it was a teenage "We're going out!" thing. Now me and this girl are closer than we've ever been, and she's one of my best friends, so it didn't turn out badly at all. And who knows, the school year is just beginning.......

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