"Two Little Beutiful Girls" -Eminem, Mocking(?)bird

Hi again, brothers. This is an addition to my last blog, which was about camp. I have stuff to talk about that happened in camp too, which have helped me to see God more clearly, and to trust in him more. (I hope :)). Anyway, yeah, as usual, these two related stories both deal with girls at my camp. Two seperate girls, to girls that I am alot closer to because of the events of this summer, well, with atleast one of them I am alot closer.

Okay, the first instance occured toward the beginning of the summer at camp this year. I've known this girl for about...ehhh....four years. We've been friends three of those years, good friends for two years. She's pretty...and thats the only reason why I liked her...more than a friend...at the beginning of the summer. So she asked me out cuz she heard I liked her from my councilor..yes, i seek council from my camp councilors, they rly cool. But, it turns out her mom didn't want her going out on a date- cuz she's too young..w/e that means :)- shes gonna b a freshman in high school this year. So then she's like....why don't we go out behind my mom's back? And I'm like- because I have morals. So i told her we should repsect her mom...and that we shouldn't do it behind her mother's back. I told her exactly that- and rolled away. You know when you feel like you need your own personal movie soundtrack to musically accompany your day? Yea, well I felt like that then. So, yea, this girl has..after this whole thing, gone behind her mother's back and is goin out wit another guy who her mom spacifically told her not to be around....but thats enough gossip. God showed me something before then that scared me bout this girl too. You know how girls get those fake tatoos written on them sometimes? Well, yea, this girl had a tatoo version of the yin-yang on her arm...she probably doesn't even know what it means...but I subsequently looked it up, and among other things, it signifies the ancient Chinese belief that there are no morals, or no right and wrong. Perhaps God was tryna warn me about how this girl decieves her mother? So, now we still friends, but I;m cautious, and pray for her....cuz she's confused...to say the least....not that I have got it all figured out, but, she needs Jesus, definetly.....

Now, the next girl I've been friends with for two years. I have talked to her everdyay online all of last year, cept for the month she refused to talk to me, on good reason, because mid-year I asked her out three times, and each time she said no, and each time got progressively more angry at me. Anyway, cuz she's a nice person she forgave me, and me and her got really close at camp, and after the thing with tryna get me to go out with the other girl...we decided to go out...cuz she fell wheels ova wheels in love with me (lol, just kidding, but she really likes me). So we "went out" for like two days....and we held hands and the like...nothing too serious.....but i really like her. Cuz shes funny (good sense of humor, she actually laughs at all my lame jokes :)) We also have a real connection, we really understand each other. But, the problem is she is not saved...like I asked her what her feelings on God were (thats how comfortable we are), and she said she was not sure. So i kinda stayed with her, waiting on God a bit, like I knew I wasn't really supposed to be in a dating relationship with a nonbeliever, but it wasn't like I was getting married or anything?....hehehe, so I had a dream one night, and the message I got from it from God was to slowly break up with her,....kindly and smoothly. So I talked to Greg from Kansas City about it, and he said I had to make it clear that it wasn't cuz the thrill of the hunt of asking her out was why I was breaking up with her. So I decided to take an approach of slowly backing away from her, without shocking her with dumping her in all of the third day we were "going out" (yes....the fun filled years of teenager!!!) Illadvisedly I told another friend and five seconds later this friend told her...she wasn;t as mad as I thought she was gonna be, I mean she cried a bit...(no, not that much, like tears welled up in her almond eyes...and i felt like a bastard) But the next day I was able to explain to her, atleast to some extent, why I had to break off the whole thing with her. I explained to her that she and I felt differently about God, and that my being christian was an important...no, the most important, aspect of my life, and I could not contradict that with my every day actions, even if it was a teenage "We're going out!" thing. Now me and this girl are closer than we've ever been, and she's one of my best friends, so it didn't turn out badly at all. And who knows, the school year is just beginning.......

GodBless
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Gone; Like Summer break is gone....

Hello peeps. I apologize for not blogging sooner. I was busy going to camp and stuff. Wow....six weeks has gone by very fast....depressing in a sense. Camp was fun, I love my peeps there. The counciors and other campers are among my closest and best freinds. It's a camp for people wit disabilities, they vary among the kids, some like me, are physical, and are more obvious than others, who have mental or emotional disabilites. All the people there are so awesome though, so much so, that I've been goin there for the past five or six years. (Still debating that with one of my councilors :)) People aren't so judgemental there as they are at school, for instance, its just....we are all really really good freinds. So much so, we're as close as the Fellowship of the Ring was. We are a tightly knit group, specially my particular group. We are all so close, we're brothers and sisters...we';ve known each other for years now....its just....something really special that happens at that camp......and now its over........I know i gotta move on, and I know Jc's always gonna be right here with me, my best freind, but its just.....at school, I mean, I talk to peeps online...but that basically the extent of my contact with peers at my skool, I mean, this is partly my fault, but its just difficult.....considering my situation, im the only really obviously physically disabled person at my school, as of last year, atleast. I dunno, it seems I'm always looking up at my peers, cuz im always sitting down in my chair, and i kno every person feels this at Hs, but I feel a rly strong sense of inferiority right now lets just say......and I got no clue what to do bout it.....anyway....gonna go.....

God bless
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DreamWeaver

DreamWeaver

I have dreamed a dream,
It leads me beside a quiet stream,
Visions dance before me in the night,
Filling me with a beacon light,
Messages from the man of sand
Coming from the highland,
When all that surrounds me seems drab,
He swipes away the bitter nightmares of Mab,
Without him I would be confused,
He directs me in the ways I can be used,
He is my eternal guide,
He is always close by my side,
Dreamweaver,
Mystery revealer,
He is my solace,
He is my Morpheus….

Survey Thing

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	David
Birthday:	May 30, 1989
Birthplace:	London, England
Current Location:	Computer, where u think, dumbass?
Eye Color:	brownish
Hair Color:	dirty blonde
Height:	dunno....in wheelchair....cant tell
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Left
Your Heritage:	English
The Shoes You Wore Today:	I HAVE NO FWIGGEN CLUE, DO I LOOK LIKE A GIRL TO U?
Your Weakness:	OBSESSIVENESS
Your Fears:	drowning, bubbles
Your Perfect Pizza:	Juicy One
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Pass Junior Year
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Sry
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Blonde over Blue
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyelashes
Your Bedtime:	wheneva....i feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory:	England.....Camp
Pepsi or Coke:	Fizzy....Bleagggggghhhhhhh
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Mickey D's
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	WTF?
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Caffine is a Drug....0 of that
Do you Smoke:	I'm cripple enough thank you
Do you Swear:	Unfortunatly
Do you Sing:	Badly....in private
Do you Shower Daily:	No...I haven't showered in years
Have you Been in Love:	CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT LOVE IS, CUZ I GOT NO CLUE
Do you want to go to College:	YEAGH..to quote lil john
Do you want to get Married:	Yeah.....i do.........but grls wont want to wit me......
Do you belive in yourself:	God believes in me, thats enough
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No, I drive a wheelchair, i'd be bloody uselss if i did
Do you think you are Attractive:	Emotionally,yea, physically, i got man boobies, u do math
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	YEA...read commandmants dumbassses
Do you like Thunderstorms:	To think bout grls in....yeah....
Do you play an Instrument:	hehehe.........
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	go away..........
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes....by myself......
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no...but lotta chocolate
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no...do i look japanese?
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yeah
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No...i did the dumping....moral decision
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	hahahaha....skinny dipping.......hahaha.....(laughs bitterly)
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No..I wear a cross....def. no
Ever been Drunk:	um.....tipsy, not drunk
Ever been called a Tease:	yes....hahaha
Ever been Beaten up:	Spiritually
Ever Shoplifted:	No
How do you want to Die:	When its my time to go
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a Man
What country would you most like to Visit:	China, Isreal
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	All.....love all
Favourite Hair Color:	all...but blonde......ooooo....ok....gotta stop that........
Short or Long Hair:	dont care
Height:	Dunno
Weight:	Heavy
Best Clothing Style:	Bright.....happy.....not too slutty.....
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Drugs.....what u mean?
Number of CDs I own:	0....iPod
Number of Piercings:	none...wanted one...b4....awakening
Number of Tattoos:	0....want a fish one
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Nothing, All that I've been makes who I am now....
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Silent Scream

This is a poem that came to me in the middle of the night a few days ago. It is clear what it is about. Will post another blog soon. Let the words inspire you!!!

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Silent Scream

I hear a youthful cry,
Rising up into a blood-red sky,
Slaughter of a multitude,
Before eating their first morsel of food,
An injustice spread throughout the land,
Life spilled senselessly on the sand,
A population jaded,
Their former morals faded,
The line between right and wrong deceitfully blurred,
Unjust and misplaced rights inferred,
A generation of youth,
Wiped out as proof,
The darkness is spreading,
Its lies and cobwebs threading,
So as the blood continues to flow,
I cry out; LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!