Pebble Picking

Dear Brothers and Sisters (YEY ;)) in Christ,

It's been an interesting journey this year, I have to admit. Yet I believe Abba is answering many of the prayers that I have prayed this year. Everytime I'm lonely, sad, depressed, enraged, or disallusioned, he comes to me and comforts me. I believe that these times are "like the stillness in the wind before the hurricane begins" to quote Bob Dylan. The theme of these last months and weeks has been Providence. The L_rd has provided for me....and he will never leave me....NEVER FORSAKE ME!!!!

So....unfortunatly I was forced to leave that Science Research Program at my school because I could not find a mentor (guide/proffessor) in my topic. I had been furiously looking, and praying that G_d would find a way...but it was not to be. Though the teacher was really good about it, she told me that even though one door may be closing, others are opening. She and I discussed my writing and the fact that I should publish over the summer. I plan to write my novel, a short story (to submit), and also atleast one poem a day. (pray for me that these goals happen)

I really feel that that teacher is right though, I can see it in other areas in my life too. Tonight we had Chinese take-out at my house, and obeying the laws of the church of the first fortune cookie (lol...this is a joke...don't crucify me) and read my "fortune": "No matter what your past been, you have a spotless future". THANK YOU ABBA!!!!! Take my social life (yes I actually have one now...it is no longer a figment of my imagination....bye bye Bo-Bo -sniff- -sniff-) I asked G_d to provide me a Christian fellowship (group of friends that are sooo close they family) at my school. PROVIDENCE!!!! G_d is so faithful. So now all these people have come up through the cracks just in the last year. From new people coming into our school who are really charismatic christians to people who have found their Messiah in these past months- its just like G_d is gathering stones into his slingshot like that little dude...what was his name? (lol...check out my poem: "Brewing Doing" if you want a lil more exposition on that) Then I'm sad last wkend (b/c I was doing sod all in town) and I go into the pizza place to watch the Soccer (GO ENLGAND) and all the guys in there are sooo nice to me, they give me free food, and just talk to me, and I've been there everyday this week...and I dunno..I can feel alot of love emanatin' (think I spelt that wrong) from that place...and I and them have become really good freinds.... anyway....I really feel that the L_rd is gathering people....its really cool what's going on....what has been going on...what is yet to go on....

Even when I've been really down (like in the last week I've been really uber-manic) G_d has just been there for me. I was gettin' a lil angry about my.....condition......on Saturday...and yelled at Abba that line from Switchfoot's song, Golden: "Like freedom in the spring" ....because I'd like freedom in the spring....and all o a sudden this robin zooms by.....

"The rain on my chest like a baptism" Dark Knight, Dark Knight Returns
I'll leave that where the thought ended.
"I can't think of anything else to say"- Pink Floyd

Just know that G_d is good and G_d is faithful

And I love you all so much
Keep the Faith
Fight the Good Fight
-Psalmer