Mountains on the Path

Hey peoples. Sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. But I'm back....I need some advice/suggestions on two main things (important things this time). Keep praying. Please :)

The first has to do with an extra class I've been taking for about a year and a half now. Its this science research project that goes on for three years of high school, and its this whole self-motivation thing. I don't know why I applied for it in the first place, but thats all in the past now. I've been doing it on Bird Social Communication up to this point. Real exciting, huh? (That's supposed to be a cynical comment....btw) I never really wanted to do that subject...but I kind of let myself get bamboozled into it (I guess thats what I thought the teachers wanted). So I had a meeting with one of the teachers on Friday, and I had done some work, but not enough, because I wasn't really motivated to do it, and I just wasn't into my research. So he was angry at me....and he could tell that I wasn't passionate about my topic...and he thought that maybe it would be better if I either quit the program or do something that I am passionate about (Creative Writing Scientific Research for example) But that would mean starting over at square one a year and a half ago, and I'mnot doing that. And I dunno if it would be time better spent honing my writing skills. Or maybe I'm just being lazy and running away from my problems. I just dunno. And speaking of writing, thats the other thing I've been wanting to talk about...
Today was the third day (during the past couple of weeks) that I tried to write a short story and even though I have ideas for characters and stuff, I just haven't been able to write anything. This has happened with my poetry too, its all become the same content....I whine in my poetry about the same crap over and over again....and It was pissing me off so I stopped writing. I'm not sure if I've lost confidence....I dunno bout anything anymore. Maybe I'm just not being persistent in the right things.

Please Pray
Dave