You Can't Take the Sky From Me

(To whoever might read..not that I care...just scribing thoughts down)

Green Day blasts their Jesus of Suburbia over the computer: "Everybody's heart doesn't beat the same." This quotation's got me thinking....bout the whole shoe comment thing (see earlier blog: Shoes of the Gospel...if you care) I probably shouldn't even be listening to their comformist manufactured, synthetic crap...but I like it....so I'll listen to whatever the hell I want. As you can tell, I'm not in a very good mood. My high school and the community I live in...all the people are stuffy...and stuck up...and easily offended...and I'm tired of their frivolous bullshit. (Ok..this has turned into an anguished teen rant...btw)


They're only obsessed with themsevles (usually...not always...making angry assumptions...and yes I'm being hypocritical...I'm just venting) and don't see other people around them. They just go about their business and do everything to get a good transcript for the college their parents will bribe their dumb asses into. They get straight As go into APs...become mindless liberals....that "care about minorities" but really they're just fucking baby killers. Most of them just don't give a damn about me...geek cripple me.....or any other geek..in fact...if they see anyone who's at all different...they pounce on the poor dude and isolate him to such an extent that he becomes an introvert. The popular people experience sexual situations and flaunt it right in front of us of geekdom....pressing their over manicured lips together in a display of animilistic fervor. That then pisses us Geeks off so we go and try it on with girls...and then they mock us when we miserably fail or get cruelly rejected (not just from my own experience). They expect us to deal with it...and control our hormones (while they themsevles can't) and "Get over it" or "Leave them alone" UGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

It would atleast be bareable if I had people at my school that I could consider "my crew". However, I only have a few people...and they're just not into the same stuff as me (I'm not trying to be picky...most of them don't even like Star Wars). So I've dealt with it. I've put up with my freinds (some of whom desperatly strive to be popular and talk about frivolous crap like girls, fashions, and the latest "news" (gossip)) and I have. I've really tried to be content. I've really tried to be nice. I've tried to be a Guinan...always listening to peoples' problems and advising them on their "relationships". But gorramit....I'm sick of it!!! I want to talk about stuff like we talk about at Tribe. Deep, meaningful, useful, thought provoking discussions. But nope, all I get to talk about is so and so's mother...(though mom jokes rnt so bad :))...and which dick is dating the chick u like.....) And I'm truly fucking tired of it. I wanna talk about scifi/fantasy/rpg (yes...D&D....what about LARPing, anyone up for that...no...no you wouldn't be. Even other geeks laugh at LARPers (If you have no idea what I'm talking about....it just further to prove my point) I know nobody who wants to do that kind of stuff (and you need at least 2 or 3 others for a good D&D game) They all either wana talk about sex and penises..or that girl over there...which I really don't wanna worry about right now.....who gives a rut?

So I don't know. They say....oh...wait till college....everything will be okay....you'll meet new, interesting people......it'll all be plumcakes and daffodils....but I don't want to wait that long......no....gorram it....I'M NOT GONNA WAIT THAT LONG....I REFUSE TO!!!! "I ain't gonna live forever" And I'm close to the edge. So forget these Armonk faggots. They don't need me. So I'm just gonna act like they don't exist. Cuz they don't. They don't matter. Their snotty little opinions don't matter....and.....I'm just gonna go full on Geek.....and I'm not fucking looking back.

This has been a different point of view

Brice