Strange Nocturnal Ramblings.....

In the tenth watch of the night,
The moon guides my pen's flight,
Causing my troubled mind to pause its incessant panting,
The Lord of the day and night peruses my teenage ranting...

I'm back. Well, I never really left, I was always here...just never had much to write about since my last blog. I thought I was due a new blog...post. I keep on telling other peeps to update their blogs atleast once a week...and then I don't for like two weeks, damn hyprocrite. Lol, anyway....where was I..nowhere, just thought I'd put down whatever God puts on my heart to type (write) about..right...now

Sorry I haven't been at church or Tribe in the last few days. I'm starting to feel like a heretic :) I would have liked to come, but the parents and baby are off in Europe...visiting the assorted kinclans in England and the like...so I have basically been stuck at home...staring at my laptop....going pale..listening to music...watching movies...had an LOTR marathon the other day....which was kind of cool...had the thunder rumbling outside, shaking the house as the combined forces of Gondor and Rohan charge the Black Gate....which was cool, added to the intensity of the scene. :) I was reminded of something Gary said at the first Tribe meeting I attended, in which he stated with the split of the Tribes..it was like setting out tent pegs in Tarrytown...like kind of beacons of Christianity. The scene in which the Gondorian beacons are lit in the mountains one by one to summon help from Rohan...it kind of symbolized, atleast to me, how it was like setting out tent peg beacons in Middle Earth. Ok, that was completely random...but thats ok.....IM RANDOM!!!! :)

On a darker note, my report card came today. Not pleasant....I failed two classes in the fourth quarter...my other quarter grades were good enough to pass me for the year, however if I continue the way I'm going...Ill be held back or worse next year. This scared me....I knew I had been doing poorly this quarter, and before then also. Math and foreign languages are difficult for me...but the truth is I just was too lazy to study. It's very bad I know, but I just didn't feel like it. Really stupid and self-destructive, I realize this, but especially at the beginning of the quarter, I started not caring. That was when I kind of kept on breaking down...pathetic, and that not an excuse....but It was a difficult time for me anyway, lets just say. (see my previous blogs) Anyway, I'm gonna enjoy myself at camp this summer, and go in in September to school with a better attitude...thats bull, let me correct that satement: With lots of prayer and much more self assesment, and getting my ass in gear and working all year next year...I will have a new attitude. Because next year is the most important,according to my imformants, junior year. My bro says that I shouldnt slack off, and I should not take his example, because he says slacking off ain't worth it...and i know hes right...and hes trying to look after me...thats what makes my bro so cool, but....ITS JUST SO HARD TO WORK HARD!!!! There is no try, only do-yoda, I know, but its rly FRIKKEN DIFFICULT!!!! Just can you guys pray for me, cuz i feel...i dunno..worn out wit skool...i guess you could say. Anyway, thats all I have to say about that....

God Bless

leskald