"Talkin' 'Bout My Generation"

Freinds...countrymen....lend me your ears!

(I didn't start this post with Dear Brothers....because I have people who are not a part of the male species...so I would not wish to exclude them...so I'm not gonna say to Brothers anymore...unless its something to do with guy talk (bom bom bom ba-dum bom bom ;))

Anyway...how is everyone doing? I hope we're doing alright....I've been up and down and all around....took my AP US History exam about two weeks ago...I feel pretty confident about it....but we'll see in July when I get my grade.....and last week I took my SATs for the first time...and I was sick (bleagh) so I'm really not confident about that...but hey.....come September....I can take it again....second chances are always a good thing.....lol....nvm........and other than that school is going pretty well......so yeah.....

Tommorow....my blog will have been in existense for a year. Happy First Birthday Phoenix Beacon! It's been a heaven of a year...lol....the fastest year that I have seen go passed....freshman and sophomore year dragged their feet soooo much...but this year...it was like...September......May.....YYYEEYYY.....it's been....an interesting Journey....voyage....it's probably been my easiest and my hardest year all at the same time.....the one with the most freinds...but also the one that I've felt the most lonely....the year that I've become really comfortable around girls....and also the year that I blubber and crash into things around them too...the hardest year academically....but also the year where I fell....hard....but where I picked myself up....
"Why do we fall, Master Bruce....So we can get back up...Alfred!"

To use a cliched Dicken's saying...it was the best of times, it was the worst of times! It's definetly been one heaven of a ride. So...to commemerate this blog's first birthday....I've decided to have....yup....you guys guessed it.......ANOTHER RANT!!! YESSSSS!!!!

So here goes: When I took my SATs....shhh...don't tell them I'm telling you the essay question...college board will come find me....Big Brother is watching.....anyway....it asked "are people who make the decisions in their lives, or is it their situations and society?" kind of a nature vs. nurture thing. And I had already been thinking about society's influence on us. (We're reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest in English class...so yea....connections!!!) That got me thinking about my current generation......those that are within five years of me....both ways....and....I don't know. One word keeps on popping up in my head about my peers and others our age around the world....especially in America. You see, what annoys me most about those that are around me....usually...is the faults that I see in myself....sides of myself that I truly hate....that I wish to get rid of....so this is probably a product of that self-criticism...but it's Apathy. I mean, every generation before us has had a purpose....a reason....a cause....but now that we live in relative prosperity...for now....and we live in Westchester.....and most people agree with most other people on most everything....the biggest cause is whether we'll get to see American Idol tonight. I mean, there's no......I dunno....fire.........maybe it's because I'm a teenager...and I hang around teenagers most of the time (theoretically)..but it's like....they always seem to be talking about....other people's lives, or tv shows (scifi=0), or something to do with sex...like ooooo I like him sooo much...or hes soooo hot....and its like WAKE THE FRACK UP PEOPLE! WAKE UP DAVID....PICK YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR OSTRICH HOLE....AND GO HELP SOMEBODY....GO FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN....(SOMETHING OTHER THAN FEMALES OR MALES) WAKE-UP PEOPLE....THE WORLD'S ABOUT TO GO TO WAR....AND YOUR WORRIED THAT SOME DIPSTICK GOT KICKED OFF AMERICAN IDOL....I MEAN HEELLLLOOO...ANYONE HEAR BOUT THE DA VINCI CODE...I MEAN...IT SEEMS OUR WHOLE SOCIETY IS ABOUT KNOCKING PEOPLE....THINGS DOWN....EVERYTHING....NO MATTER WHAT THE BELIEFS ARE....O...YOUR GAY.....OOO...YOUR WEIRD.....LETS MAKE FUN OF YOU (I'M GUILTY OF IT TOO)...OOO....CHRISTIANITY.....OOO...LETS MAKE UP SOME GARBAGE AND WRITE A BADLY WRITTEN BOOK ABOUT JC AND MARY HOOKIN UP...OOO.....SCANDAL....OOOO....SHOCK HORROR.....JESUS AND OPRAH? OOOOO.....LETS JUST BE SO COMPLETELY PC AND SYNICAL THAT WE LOOSE ALL TOUCH WITH HUMANITY!!!
whoah....don't kno where that came from...anyway...I dunno...its like...every generation had their fight.....for centuries it was the clan...the family.....then it was the loss of faith with war in the '20s....the FDR "we'll try something...and if that doesn't work we'll try something else" mentality of the thirties, a clear cut good guy bad guy war during the forties, the civil rights and youth rebellion of the fifties and sixties....the geek/disco movements in the seventies.....the punk rebellion in the 80s....atleast the 90's Generation X had a spokesperson in Cobaine....even if he did.....well......
But now....its just....i go up to people...I feel no connection...its like....hi.....hi....wassup......wassup....ntm.....ntm....end of conversation...or I'm tired....EVEN THE PRINCIPAL OF MY SKOOL SAID THAT TO ME....IM LIKE WASSUP...HES LIKE....TIRED....AND ITS JUST LIKE....UGHH......people just go from class to class...in apathy..or just (ooo..did she see that drool particle roll down my cheek...o dear...she did....ooo...she thinks im an ass)...its just soooo....uggg......frivolous.....
There's just no spiritual feeling...I want that spiritual joy all the time....but I can't feel it...I wanna put a fire in these people...and tell them...hello....WAKEUP....REVELATIONS IS UPON US.....JESUS IS COMING....AND ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO ADDED GOSPELS AND BELIEVED IN ALL THIS CORRUPTION IN THE GOVERNMENT AND WITH IMMORALITY (YES...ALL OF US)...AND THOSE WHO DON'T KNEEL TO THE KING....ARE GONNA BE TRAMPLED..but its just like...'
I go into that school....and the opression is like a prick in my ballon....just PPPPPPPPSSSSSSHHHHHHHTTTTTTTT....u kno? I dunno.....I'll see some of you saturday night.....I invited a freind...dunno if she'll come....we shall see.....

That's all I gotta say about that...
Harbinger